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I Like You
Hey Celaena,
I guess you were right. You do give people falsified hope, now that I think about it. I’m so confused. What were you trying to do? You acted all flustered when I complimented you. (Were you really?)
And when I told you I liked you, you hid your face and smiled so beautifully it made my heart ache. Perhaps you smiled because you thought it was a joke. (Or perhaps it was merely my eyes playing tricks on me.)
Honestly, if you never told me you were flattered when I said you looked pretty, I would never have even hoped to be liked (loved) by you.
Perhaps I misread the signs. Perhaps I thought you liked me back just a little. Perhaps the fact that you actually contemplated dating me for a heartbeat instead of outright rejecting me also gave me a bit of hope.
Oh, you dreamt of me last night? It doesn’t mean anything, right? Holding my hand so tight and not letting go; falling asleep on my lap. It doesn’t mean anything, right? (I wish it did.)
I wish you liked me back.
But… you know what? Even if we don’t date, I think… I think I’m happy knowing that at some point in time, I was somewhere in your heart. Not as a friend, but as something… a little more.
~ Love, Avery
Depression (repost)
Slow
to leave
the darkness
the comfort
the oblivion
of sleep
I awaken
day
after
day
after
day
to a world
drained
of color
of joy
of energy
suffocating
on hues
of gray
I feel
heavy
lumbering
listless
my body
an unwanted
weight
the air
laden
with melancholy
despair
woe
my mind
mired
in the endless
soul-destroying
mind-numbing
why’s
of it all
the answers
to which
I do not
know.
My Heart
It beats for me to live.
Yet, it slays me.
It has a mind of its own, I'm sure.
I try staying strong.
Through sadness.
But my heart makes me cry anyway.
I try getting over things.
Forgetting. Moving on.
But my heart won't let go.
I try focusing on myself.
Just me.
But my heart cares for others.
I try to ignore problems.
To eliminate stress.
But my heart is sympathetic.
I should listen to my heart.
Within lies a voice.
A greater power.
My heart beats for me to live.
And, I've found,
It beats for others, too.