The dust swept the reasons from my soul

for feeling like falling in love with you.

Vignettes played of you before life ceased,

swift feet danced on the brink in soft wind

but time erased our fallen leaves of fall.

You disappeared beyond reach of my eyes

in dusky shadows of dimly lit evening.

You became a star in pencil sketched sky

as days whispered softly in tender winds.

You won’t be there to tie my shoes -

you’ve reached your destination

of cellophaned roses upon your breast,

melting in drops upon hallowed earth,

heavens shrouded in tormented cries.

I feel like falling

Down the rabbit hole

Getting lost

Changing form

Fluctuating in size

And frame of mind

The Jabberwocky

Will scare me straight

And I will find

A smoking caterpillar

And he will help me

Forget all about you

I feel like falling

Off the tip of your tongue

          Into a gleaming pool

          Of warm sentiments,

                              Hypnotized by their embrace

                              They consume my waking hours,

     Driven to the cliff of our love,

     Parched and I feel like falling

i

feel

like

falling

maybe 

one

day

things

will 

get 

better

maybe

one

day

i

will

be

clever

but 

that

is

not 

reality

it

is 

a 

fantasy

that

will

never 

come 

true

so

let 

me 

drop

so 

let

me

plunge

so 

let 

me 

feel

the

air 

pushing

upon

my 

lungs

let

me

fall

let

me 

go

to

the

deep

dark

souls

AN: This poem is not based on my feelings. I base my poems mostly off of other books and feelings that I've felt that are not as extreme.

Just wanted to clarify for some because some of my other posts are emotionally dark as well. 

Falling feels like 

     I can't take control

Falling feels like 

     it's toward a black hole

Falling feels like 

     a collision course

Falling feels like 

     a run away horse

Falling is 

     because I'm giving you all

Falling is 

     no answer when I dare call

Falling is 

     sobbing without any sound

Falling is 

     dying without you around

Falling makes 

     me laugh at myself

Falling makes 

     the same sense as an elf

Falling makes 

     it all lose perspective

Falling makes 

     me not be objective

Falling lets 

     me let go of the wheel

Falling lets 

     me assess how I feel

Falling lets 

     my heart go where it pleases

Falling lets 

     me crave all of your teases

Falling can 

     be the most freeing thing

Falling can 

     have a much better ring

Falling can 

     be the best thing I can do

Falling can 

     let me know I need you.

I feel like I am falling 

into

 another trap 

caught in

the

lions pen

jaws 

wide 

open

seeking 

to 

devour 

my meager spirt 

waitng 

to 

take 

their 

claws

and 

clean

up 

the 

cartilage 

of strength 

off my bones

licking

their

deathlike 

chops 

waitng 

to 

sink

their 

teeth

into 

the marrow

of  my bones 

and hear

my screams of mercy 

red 

saliva 

dripping

down 

their

mouth 

ready

to 

pounce

on

the 

pleasure 

of 

human flesh 

eyes

punctured 

deep 

with 

hate 

thriving 

off

the 

anger 

to 

seek

revenge 

to kill

all faith in hope

statans

little pets 

scratched

upon

the 

ear

purring

at

the attention 

reccived

he 

unleashes

his 

hands

from

their

necks

and

sets 

them 

lose

on

the 

world 

ripping

and 

tearing

through 

an

murdering

innocent 

lives

with

innocent 

thoughts

of 

hopelessness

Tonight I feel like falling.

Your hair covers those emeralds eyes, but your smile still shines like a million stars and

Tonight I feel like falling

Because your gaze is unwavering. My heart is dancing under your ever watchful glance. I pretend I do not notice you looking at me. Are you doing the same?

Tonight I feel like falling,

And my grip is slipping.

You laughed at my joke and even as I fall, I float. I never thought I would be brave enough to say a word.

Tonight I feel like falling.

A two hour bus ride and one conversation later and you have pushed me off the cliff. Will you catch me?

Anger, frustration, sadness, and pain

It all builds up and crashes on me

I feel like falling

Falling away from it all

Falling away from this world

Falling away from your cold grasp

No more puppet people

No more artificiality

I know I'm not dreaming but this feels like a nightmare

I'm falling away from me

I feel like falling sometimes-

But I am just top heavy-

My mind seems so swollen and bulging I can barely walk on my own two legs-

I feel like falling sometimes-

Whether from a cliff or a dream-

But I'm just top heavy-

Sometimes my imagination catches up with me-

I feel like falling sometimes-

I close my eyes and breathe-

But I'm just top heavy-

With a brain bigger than my body-

I feel like falling sometimes-

But I never quite make it-

For when you're top heavy what's ever in your mind can never take it-

That tumble-

That fall-

That leap of faith-

What ever it is-

My top heavy brain can't take being asleep.