Recollection
I smile
When I think of you.
My memories of you are framed
Within a misty haze.
I never saw your faults
Only the tender reality
Of your flawed perfections.
The gentle curving veins
Along your wrist
Shifting as your pencil glides
Effortlessly
Across a scrap of paper.
The slight protrusion of your Adam’s apple
Bobbing as you swallow thoughtfully.
The simple concentrated gaze
And calm and steady silence
Glowing while you create a work of art.
The warmth and mystery
Contained within
Your hazel blue-green eyes.
The merry grin
That comes so easily
Even when you’re feeling down.
The pensive melancholy
That clouds your expression
When you think no one is looking.
I care.
I cared.
Juicy Fruit
Ripe, plump and flawless, ready for the picking
Moist dewy skin rosy and akin to juicy fruit dripping
Luscious and mellow inciting riots of yearning
Succulent to thirsty taste buds, ambrosia to tongue
lush melon breasts firm and uplifting to touch
tongue, teeth and hands massaging her harvest
sweetest treat found in the core of her being
sap of my soul overflows into woven basket
substance of our passion comingles in lust
fruit lies fallow after desire rainbow subsides.
Shatter Like Glass
The window breaks. You watch as glass flies everywhere, blanketing the ground with glittering shards. At first you feel nothing. The window is gone but the difference is not yet clear. You see out into the world through the gap just as you always did. Then the glass bites at your arms as it flies, leaving marks on your skin, blood dripping to the floor. Then you feel the cold. Wind blows through the gaping hole and you shiver at its caress. You stand there, goosebumps rising on your flesh, for a short eternity before you finally move searching for a sweater. After twenty minutes of searching you finally find one at the bottom of your closet and as you shrug into it the rough wool scrapes against the wounds left by the window's destruction. You try to remember the last time you wore a sweater, already missing the silent protection the window offered without you even noticing. Sweater in place, you search for something to fill the gap. Eventually, you find a plastic sheet and tape it into place over the hole. Sweeping the shards to the side, you turn away from the carnage and go to bed.
You wake the next morning and re-enter the kitchen. Habit takes over and as the coffee pot begins to heat you grab your sponge and turn to pull back the drapes before it comes back to you. You remember what happened and your hand falls, coming to rest on the marks on your arm. After a moment you sigh, wrapping a blanket around your shoulders and turning back to your coffee.
As the weeks move on the wounds on your arms heal. You get used to wearing a sweater around the house. Eventually, you replace the window. But the new window is of a different style, more plain looking and sturdy than the previous one. You still find glass from time to time in the carpet and for a moment it takes you back and you find yourself lost in that night again. As you become comfortable with the new window you wear sweaters around the house less and less but you never let them become buried quite so deep again. The window becomes part of your past but the scars will always remain.
I Will Always Love You
How can I tell you
How I feel inside
How do I let you in
I try and try
But you don't want to hear
Unlike me
You show your pain
Everyone near
Holds you dear
They see you cry
And they wipe the tears
I'm the person
Who is holding you close
Fearing you may leave me
I'm the one
Who tried to love you the most
Hoping that you would see me
Praying that soon
Maybe
You would hold me instead
But to this day
That time hasn't come
I stay here instead
And cry alone
No one hears my wails
No one sees the pain
I wear a mask
Sort of like you
But mine is permanent
So nothing shows through
I may be laughing
But a tear just ran down my cheek
I may be singing
But a wail is hidden beneath
I may be smiling
But that's all you can see
Or at least what you choose to see
I try to reveal the pain
The suffering
But you turn your eye
I try to let you see
What you are doing to me
I try let you know
That I need you to help me
I've thought about things
Things that truly scare me
I've thought of my body so cold
Head finally empty
I try to tell you
But you turn away
I think
Of what you would say
Wondering
Who would be the ones to cry
Questioning
If anyone would wish I had stayed
I think you might shed a tear
Maybe spare a memory
But in the end
I would be a story
That disappeared
I try to tell you
To let you know
But you are silent
As my words seem to fall
On deaf ears
Can't you all see
What you are doing to me
No
You just go
You run
You're gone
But I'm not
I stay for you
Because I still love you
Even though I'm dying
I try to bring you to life
I try everything to make you smile
I care
Even if you don't
I guess
What I want you to know
Is that I'm hurt
And you have hurt me too
But I don't care
Because I will always love you