hello

a single word

that when heard

can make

or break

someone's day

depending how you say

or the reason why.

and with every hello

comes goodbye

but no one wants to go

i am proud

of how far ive come.

with my thoughts so loud

i thought i'd be numb.

i was hurt so much by the past

there was enough pain and anger

to last

and in order to get better

i had to let it go

so i could learn to grow.

and i hope you are proud too

because even though i have a scar

or two

i've come so far.

"why didn't you tell me,

she's my best friend?"

don't you see,

it could end

what ive spent so long

building with you

i thought it would be wrong

if i told you i felt the way i do.

because my feelings were so strong

how was i supposed to say i like her

after

i liked you for so long?

i have a crush

that gives me such a rush.

on this girl

who makes my heart whirl

and i try to make it end

because she has a boyfriend.

she knows how i feel

and says it'll never be real.

but she does this thing

that doesn't have me believing

she doesn't feel a little bit

but she'll never admit it.

she'll flirt, laugh, and smile with me

and i try so hard to see

if she's just playing a game

or secretly feels the same

i just want some who

will care for me

and it seems as though

there would be no issue

and it would be easy

but that isn't so

i have things

for people

who never

have the same feelings

and i am unable

to get over

but as hard as i try

i cant, and i wonder why.

there are two cups of coffee

and one is empty

once full

with a spoonful

of sugar

even after

they still want more

as if they didn't have any before.

there are two cups of coffee

one is empty

but the other is getting cold

it isnt covered in gold

and even though it isnt sweet

doesnt mean you can delete

because even the bitter

deserve good, like any other

if he was real

i wouldnt feel

the way i do

and the things ive been through

wouldnt be true

and id be loved too.

if he was real

i wouldnt have to deal

with all this shit

none of it

if he was there

someone would care

about me

and i would be

this scared

if someone cared

i am another teen

not some kind of queen.

i have many flaws

because

no one's perfect.

theres always conflict

whether i want it or not.

there is always a lot

causing my rage

but stay say because of my age

i should be happy

but there's more to see

than who a person appears to be

because that's not me

never again

will i fall for you

even when

i say, i know it's not true.

i can tell

but i remember why

i fell

and as hard as i try

getting over

a girl like you

maybe be better

but it's hard to do.

i say never again will

i fall for you

but still

i doubt that's true.

what would it be like to

have you

lying next to me

nothing could be

better.

lying next to her

all else will fade

all that weighed

me down will go away

we don't even have to say

anything

because lying

next to you

is a dream come true