Lost Love
I loved her so
But she not me
Or so she said
I said, “I see.”
I went in search
Of love again
Found a heart
T'was on the mend
Fell deep did I
But was it right
To cast aside
What felt so right
For others, too
Of younger age
Had stolen this heart
Before turning the page
Hastily leaping
For what seemed true
Knowing however
Iʼd bid adieu
To warmest hearts
Iʼd ever felt
And disappointment
I had dealt
To those whoʼs hearts
Had been through hell
And looked to me to
Keep them well
Tears do well
When I think of them
Fondest memories
Shine like gems
But to them
I exist no more
For I have closed
That loving door
For what you ask
They paid this price
How could I hurt
These ones so nice
I have no answer
I have no clue
I am not proud
I am just blue
I'll find my way
Of this Iʼm sure
Hope for forgiveness
From hearts so pure
Me
I have a box on my head
Or a bubble, or a chain with a lock
It's the best I can do
To describe to you how it feels
The silent violence that takes over my entire body
Mostly my mind
Most weeks, doing nothing, being nothing
I should shut up
But you see I have things I like
Things to say
Feelings to express
Actions to take...
I should shut up
It's better to hold on and let the world around close in
Not breathe smoothly
Want to cry and curl up until it just stops....
I should just shut up
Theme
They not afraid of our silence
But of our forward progress
So they prop themselves up
They throw stuff at our feet
Thinking they can not be reached
Until we make them comfortable enough Where they fall asleep
No time for a celebration
Time to throw the plan in action
Left right left we fight till the death
We live as one and fight for all
Never been afraid to fall
the ground has always been home the one thing that keeps us humble Doesn't matter where we go
The ground is willing to rumble
As long as you keep your feet planted
You won't be throw from the planet
Reaction
In the heat of summer, blood dries quickly,
so too in our minds.
Pulse pumped out blood and drowned us,
but we forgot after a week.
Blue blood means nothing,
as we learned in Dallas.
How many tragedies
to make a nation feel something?
How many funerals for us to cry ?
But no, it passes
along our feeds
because we don't need to feel;
We don't live in the real world anymore.
And sometimes,
I wonder,
in the age of information,
how will God find us online?
Chameleon
As I write, I seep into different identities
with the ease of an actor trying on costumes.
Unwillingly, I touch my fingers to my lips
though I've never smoked;
this sparks my transformation
into beautiful women drowning in fabric,
or southern farmers with sun-ironed faces,
pale roman scholars penning logical treatises,
but I am never me.
I am everyone else,
but never me.
I cannot keep a diary.