You and I
"you were stoic. And I, well, I was not.
You see, music embodies emotion, and I know that I'm already an emotional person but I can't really help it. I guess I'm just made to always fog up every little detail with my worrying, but maybe emotions just work that way.
And that's why, I think, why I thought you would be clear, you would be simple. After all, you are music. Music is clear. Music is simple. Music makes sense, and I don't know why but I thought you would make sense too.
I mean, music embodies emotion, and you are stoic. And I am not. So looking back at it, I can't believe I ever thought that you would make sense, that you would be clear, because you are just about the most frustrating person I have ever met in my lifetime. And that's quite an achievement.
But you, you are music. And music is supposed to make sense, but you taught me to push the envelope, go beyond my comfort zone. Friends first, but you were also my teacher, and I know teachers. Teachers teach concepts, facts, but you taught me ideas. You taught me, and I learned to love music more than I thought possible.
Yeah, you were really frustrating. But you found me when I was lost and alone, and you showed me that I wasn't. You were stoic, and I wasn't, but really, we were more alike than not. You're like the big brother I wish I had, and you've told me that I'm like a little sister, but honestly we're more like the same person. You're like me, only from the future, or something like that. Maybe that's why you were frustrating.
But you are music. And I am too."
I get off at 2
She fidgets
Pulling at hair
Already perfectly out of place
Across a room
Of tabletop mugs
Behind a bar pressing beans to dust
A portrait of Hepburn
On her skin in ink
Tells me she's 20 something
I can read in her eyes
She spells with each quick glance
A letter at a time
I am your heartbreak
Your one-time romance
Fear
It trespasses into your room as you sleep. You hear a noise and it wakes you. Dark shadows on the wall as the clock keeps on moving forward.
It grips you and strangles you as you fight to breathe...thrusts its fist of emotions through your throat, tugging at your heart, poking into your lungs, leaving scars and permanent destruction.
You dream and the shadow comes towards you - weapons in each hand and absent eyes.
You shake, you shiver, you sweat and then you get cold again.
You dream and the shadow screams into your ear that you will fail.
You walk and the cracks in the sidewalk make you dizzy and cause you to feel you will fall.
You live and your heart is broken - your filled with scar tissue from the whispers, screams and tears telling you to stop, to stop - the light is yellow, can you see it blinking?
It tries to protect you - but all it does is limit you.
It tries to confine you but you must shake the chains of fear and watch them fall to the ground.
Fear - an emotion born to protect but with a snowball effect cant destroy any hope or joy that fights through the realities that surround us.
Can you imagine the terrifying vision of the executioner, toothless smiling and absent eyes, walking towards you, armed in both hands with weapons of destruction?
The executioner with a love that smothers you, wanting to protect you, to encircle you to keep you from harm,
Break down the barriers that keep you safe from living and from harm.
Fear, your lifeguard to keep you safe from harm - sometimes its the harm that is needed in order to be safe in life.
forgetting not
painted bright as a poppy drops
on water in winter armour
endeared with pins through daring
words emotives that would fly
scramble . alert.
stand down
flutter arrested
attested to truth
at rest the
compression lump
chunks of red muscle lie against
deceit born by eyes . there is
no offer.
petals drop as remembrance
of a bi-partisan battle. disorder
beaten by bravehearts
that did not fall but threw themselves
on into mud made winter sharp
slowly giving to drops of blood
Bad Choice
The safety of locked doors
and dogs asleep at my feet
The oyster tried to open
my front door with laughter
holding with it lilac wine
on vinyl and chocolate kisses
every dream palpable
vampire white smile
enticing my core
bold blood
begging me
to open out
to fly into
his abyss
with my
sapphire winds
No
I have work to do
I shut the blinds
to new adventure
I have to wait
After all
I have responsibility
I lock the door
My skin tight
my blood turns soft
My wings thin
weathered feathers fall
the dogs stop barking
The past wind
not settled
enough to embrace
a new hurricane
heart clamp
too tight
to pump
or run wild
and reckless
with a
new beast
I clinch my fist
A somber realization
I have become
the coward
that I had very
much despised
in him
Tonight
I rest
behind a
blue light
of denial
Find a way
to push
the old seed
from my soil
A taste of being afraid
Remains sour on my tongue