This is Not the End
This is the end.
This is where you,
Blurry-eyed from tears,
Stumble home
(You always thought home must be a place on Earth
Oh, how wrong you were)
No one told you
About anything,
About the what comes after, about
A life only viewed as precious
Due to its destined cessation
This is where the truth spills
Like water from a broken pipe
Your mind is the sponge which
Absorbs each puddle of information
As you make sure to repeat the words
Not three, nor five, but several times
As you learn of a light that never burns out
This is where the corruption inside is strangled,
Choked until it ceases to exist
As anything but an ache in your chest
You couldn’t remember the crimes you have committed,
Never mind why
So you would disappear under a heap of blankets,
Trying not to think of the person you must be
But you can’t push the thought away forever,
And now you know, for
This is where every memory comes flooding back
You are reminded of each triumph and defeat
From the start of time to your last moments on Earth
Someone told you,
About everything,
About what comes after, only
To be told these are not the kind of memories
You have the capability to keep
This not the end,
This is where you,
Screaming, forcing the tears that won’t come,
Crawl back to what you call home,
(Though only because you don't know any better)
This is the beginning.
Please don’t go
Please don't leave me.
I know it's hard. I know life's hard. I know this world has torn you down over and over.
But don't go. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I love you. I love you. I love you.
God damn it.
Okay.
I know this isn't even poetry anymore or even a piece of decent literature. You've always been the better one at this anyways. It's just I don't think I can tell you how much I need you.
You live on the other side of the damn world yet I can't help but think of you as my best friend. And I know life is such crap and that you just can't take it anymore. You don't deserve that. But I'm going to be selfish and tell you the truth. I don't deserve this.
This pain of not knowing whether I'll see your face on my screen ever again or if you'll alive long enough for me to meet you in person. Counting days between our goodbyes is like holding my breath and praying that you'll be okay. That life will be okay.
But I know that life isn't okay. This world sucks. I know. I know. I know. Just please don't make this world worse for me.
Stay. For me, if not you.
You Are
You are my weekness
You are my pain and happiness
You are my world and the whole universe
You are all I want, you are all I want to embrace
You are my weakness and sadness, and you are.. definitely, my happiness.
You are the blood in my veins and my whole universe. You are- the universe.
because even lions are soft
in the spots behind their ears,
their bellies, and their manes
because even lambs can draw blood
with rough wools and hooves
and bleating tongues that bray
so which of us will tame our beasts
and which one of us will slay...
<<i feel at peace in your violence>>
~the lion lies down with the lamb
selah.k_x
People’s Sacrifice
I'm a sacrifice
For the people,
Mend me how you need.
For each piece of me,
Is another one for you.
None of this is mine
It's just yours.
Each piece
Sheds itself
From my being,
Until there's nothing left
Besides a false smile,
Lying on the ground
As I tell myself
I'm happy!
This is how it's supposed to be!
Nothing left for myself,
But the fake joy
From giving myself completely
To those strangers.
Forgetting who I am
To fit their perfect dreams.
Forgetting what I was
Besides a sacrifice
For the greater good.
Is this how life's supposed to be?
Just broken pieces of a being,
Left to be fought over by others,
Left to be forgotten as a person,
But remembered as a thing,
But remembered for their sacrifice,
While hiding their unhappiness from the world
While hiding how they truly feel.
Is this how life's supposed to be?
Are we supposed to be nothing more
Than something to be used
For the benefit of others?
Because at this rate,
I'll become nothing more than a sacrifice
Of false smiles and false hopes.
But that's just life.
Isn't it?
Water
surge is
soaring Water Water the
shaking is cheek giggle
the the your of
is tear on a
Water crystallizing child
is waves
Water the roaring Water
puddle strangled the is
a scream 'neath the
in of pulled sloshing splashing a man of
and as it
gulp slurp wave wanders
you and the near
when sip of and the
belly Water whisper far is
your is the Water
eminently Water IS
the rhymable is
definable force Water
chemically behind is
the all Water
unfathomable our lives
Past
What you did before makes no difference
I don't know and I won't ask
Has never crossed my mind
Your past is your past
You have no reason to be afraid
I'll never treat you as an outcast
What happened then doesn't matter now
It's your past
Only know the present day you
You look awesome in my looking glass
Special and beautiful
I'm not concerned about your past
Wanting to hold your hand into the future
Desiring a relationship that'll last
You're my rock and I'll be your anchor
Love conquers past