look at the big bright sun

as it shines over the boundless horizon

giving a beginning to a brand new day

where you can start anew

look at the luscious green tree

as its sturdy branches sway with the wind

and as its leaves wave to acknowledge

the presence of the beings below

look at the vast blue sky

as it reflects over the sea everlasting

gazing upon its own gorgeous image

all day and all night long

look at the dog with his owner

as it happily prances around the field

making the best out of its life

with just a ball and a stick

look at the stars sprinkled out at night

as they shine despite that darkness that envelopes them

making their way through millions of kilometers

and hundreds of universes

now

look at someone

who doesn’t know what the future has in store for him

wanting to end his pain, his misery

in this life full of surprises

look at someone

who breaks every time a big storm comes his way

desperately trying to ask for help

from the people around him

look at someone

who reflects upon himself, his own image and self-worth

doing his best to find out who he really is

and whether he deserves to be here

look at someone

who’s too afraid to break his walls

trapping him in there forever

’til he’s gray and old

look at someone

who tries to break free from the self-procured chains

losing his mustered strength and courage

like a star burning out

forgotten

as if it never existed

as if he has never gotten the chance to live

so

please

please

take a look at everyone around you

i swear

i'll be beautiful

just give me a week

to show you my gums

bleed

burning

with regret, but

it's all i can see

this imperfect mirror

hiding

a perfect girl

watch my

confidence shrink,

watch my

bones unfurl, and

i swear

i'll be beautiful

just give me a month

to show you i've

won

three sizes

undone, but

i still can't have fun

this perfect mirror

hiding

an imperfect girl

watch my

flesh disappear,

watch my

apathy whirl, and

i swear

i'll be beautiful,

just give me a week

i swear

i'll be beautiful,

gums start to bleed, and

i swear

i'll be beautiful

just give me a month

i swear

i'll be beautiful,

three sizes undone, and

i swear

i'll be beautiful,

just give me a year

i swear

i'll be beautiful

when i disappear.

Where once an ornate figure existed

Now paper laid out flat, creases still seen

Life's folds

Stories told

Yet, at death's door reduced to simply this

A single sheet of marred perfect paper

3/15/17 Entry 1

I stared into its face, half hidden with shadows, a savage beast that our team had managed to capture. We've been hunting the devil for ages, and at long last we have detained it. Do you know what this could mean? For the future of science? For the future of our entire race? Do you know how many questions we'll finally have answers to? And of course when we are done studying and experimenting on it we will release it into a controlled environment in a nice zoo with a wild life conservation program. We simply cannot deny the people the opportunity to observe such an exotic and intriguing specimen. However I am questioning the safety of such an exhibit. Of course there would be added safety precautions unlike that of the other animals on display. Perhaps a bullet proof screen would be appropriate? At the moment we have restrained the creature with chains-loose fitting of course, we can't have any animal right organizations taking it away when we are so close to getting it to cooperate. It's in a dark unadorned room, no stimulation that could possibly trigger its primal instincts, and every day we've been trying out different diets it might respond to. It was wearing strange things on its body over its dirty looking skin, and we've stripped it of them to examine the garments. The animal seems to be very upset over this confiscation, it keeps making strange noises, and tries covering certain parts of its body. We will keep you posted as new information about the subject emerges.

3/16/17 Entry 2

I know not the meaning or significance behind this revelation, but we've found a piece of cloth in the same area we found the creature and the ship it used for transportation. It's clearly not from our world, its of a strange scratchy material and is dyed in red, white, and blue-with markings all over it. We are hoping the subject may show some emotional response to it.

My eyes fitly set upon your majesties

by your graces endowed, I'm raised

from humbling lows to zenith highs

pillars of all ages, perfumed

with effervescent botanicals,

olibanums, —eucalyptuses sit heavy

on your breast; you, mighty mountains,

whose deep shadows never rest,

or fly away. from you, I seek peace

when unto Men, I can cry out no more

Living a lie

Only to please others

Nothing dulls the pain

Everyone else is laughing while I

Lay down and cry

I don't know where I went wrong

Nowhere is home

Everyone is gone

Sadness chokes me

Sleep is the only escape

Stars count us you know

they feed off of our curiosity

and seek us when they're out

because once the sun stops hiding them 

and the clouds stop muffing their light

they can join us in our gaze

quite content

to return the affection