Eternity
I once bought a girl an eternity ring
Eternity I thought was forever
It lasted another month or two
Then she left for someone more clever
It took a while before the pain had gone
And then I met sweet little Mary
At six foot two and eyes of blue
And a chin that always looked hairy
Mary and I were made for each other
And decided to marry in spring
Our love would last for eternity
And I’d already got a spare ring
©Julian Race 24/5/2021
Silence
You gave me your hand
You built a home from the pieces of a broken man
Instead of covering up my bruises with kisses like you used to
you made more
Now my mind’s is at war
because you’re not the love I once knew
Your ghost sits with me
underneath the willow tree
We hold in our anger and call it home
we never get lost for we do not roam
Your ghost picked me apart and looks inside
I couldn’t run, I couldn’t hide
Your ghost filled me with dreams I can’t hold
It’s the only thing keeping me afloat in this cold world
I wish that we could’ve run away
I wish I could just leave the growing up for another day
This nostalgic feeling is weighing down on me
Like the kid I used to be is looking down on me
I see your ghost stare at the photographs of us
and smile at the things stuck in the past
But I also see the hole that slowly spreads as your ghost looks at our picture
your ghost turns and looks at me
I have to look closely
to see your ghost whisper “I’m sorry”
I can’t handle the silence that threatens to crush us
So I sing a song to keep the quiet out
But it’s not enough
because when you watch me with those sad eyes
I self-destruct on the inside
It’s never a pretty sight
And it pains me, even more, when your ghost cries
because we’re both hurting inside
You used to say “there’s love in the silence”
I always replied with a smile, “tell me something I don’t know”
This love doesn’t feel right anymore
I miss the love that wasn’t filled with sadness and pain
I miss the before
I call your ghost over so we can take a picture
but no matter how many times we take the picture it’s not the same
because in the after photo I’m all alone
Even with your ghost here I feel alone
So I listen to your recorded voicemail on my phone
My hands are balled into fists
In that moment I realize how lonely it is to exist
The silence keeps trying to sprout
So I play your voicemail over and over to keep the silence out
The Things I Did So I Wouldn’t Forget
I remember when it was just me and you
lying around talking about nothing new
I remember when it was just you and me
and all those fishing trips down to the sea
and suddenly out of nowhere you said you had to leave
me being so young and so naive
said “it’s ok I’ll wait here by the sea”
and then when I grew up it finally dawned on me
that it was all make-believe
because you left a long time ago
but my younger self said, “no I can’t let go.”
unknowingly dragging my heart in tow
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A Little Break?
So, I was thinking. I have only two months of school life left. The exams are all approaching soon. And this result has quite an impact on deciding my future. So, maybe I should consider staying away from some things for a while-From Facebook to Youtube, and maybe Prose.
I mean, for almost a month, I was not able to finish a single post. And I don't think I really would be able to do that in the coming months too. So, maybe instead of attempting and failing in multitasking, again and again, I think I should focus on one task right now. And considering the current circumstances, the top priority should be learning, of course. So, this is almost like a short goodbye.
I mean, I would come back, of course. This place is now a part of my life. I am not leaving this place (At least not anytime soon. You see, life can be unpredictable ^-^). So, I might not be around here for a while. I might be busy devouring textbooks. So, I will miss you guys. But I will be back soon ^-^
PS: And the day I return, I am announcing my arrival by taking down this post, lol. It seems far too emotional for my type ^-^ So until someday halfway April, keep this place cheerful, won't ya ^-^
Tired
I want I want
To go to bed
But words, they flutter
In my head
Like watching swarms of wasps or bees
Like hearing whispers through the trees
Like waiting for a tiger’s pounce
But with no rest, no wink or ounce.
I think I’m meant to be a writer
I’m far too critical to fail
I know in person I get nervous
And my thoughts sometimes derail
But on paper it’s a different story,
One that helps me boast in glory!
But then again perhaps I should hide
My shameful and disgusting pride
Cause I’m no better than another
Cause I can stitch some words together
It means far more I’m treated kind
Than showing you what’s in my mind
So I stay silent
My silent bind
Is it for your sake?
Or for mine?
An Opportunity to Publish Our Writing
I have my best, and worst ideas at about 4:00 in the morning. The trouble is: I sometimes think that my worst idea is my best idea, and vice versa.
Here's a 4:00 idea from this week that I truly think is a good idea. So, I present it here, for your review and comment.
One of my New Years resolutions for 2021 is to publish some of my writing. My 10 year old son said that it would be nice if I would publish my writing so he could read it when he's older. He never fails to melt my heart.
So, my primary goal is to publish some writing for my children. But, it would be nice to sell a few books too.
Based on my limited experience in retail I know that sales are best at Christmas. But, there are also spikes in sales just before Mother's Day and Father's Day.
What if I, what if we were to publish a compilation of stories, essays, and poetry about parents and parenthood just before mothers Day? I'm thinking that the book could be a mixture of fiction and non-fiction about mothers, fathers, grandparents; about mother figures, father figures; about being a parent; or being a son or daughter? The theme is parenting / parenthood in general.
I'm thinking that this would be a self-published book, and that there would be an agreed upon system for sharing of profits (based on the extent to which each author contributes).
I'm blasting this idea out to a bunch of my followees and followers to determine whether this idea is worth pursuing.
Please comment with:
A Good luck but I'll pass
B - I'm interested, but I need more information before considering further.
C - I'm in! I have some writing ready to submit for consideration. Please message me and we'll discuss.
D - I'm in! I would like to submit some new writing for consideration. Let's discuss your ideas. Please nessage me.
E - You are mistaken. Bad idea.
F - Other (please include your thoughts / comments)
Writing submitted for consideration will be reviewed by myself and a small group of co-editors (yet to be named). I'm sorry but It's likely that we won't be able to include all submissions.
Please note that I'm hoping that the book will represent a wide range of families from "perfect" to completely disfunctional; traditional to non-traditional.
Thanks for considering this idea, and for your responses. Feel free to invite your fellow authors / repost if you like.
Let's see what happens over the next 5-7 days. I'll make a decision whether to proceed with the project by Friday January 22nd, based on responses received.
Thanks!
Chris