You are the first I think of

Lady of the Opera

shining bright among

so many wearing privilege

and age to hide their souls.

You wear yours

for everyone to see

most of all the shadow

in Box Five.

I will never speak to you

without hiding my face

never hear you sing

while singing back

never be with you

graced by your presence.

One day, maybe-

but that is just a dream

the foolish apparition

of a starved mind.

They chase me away

before I can talk

tie names on me

dolorous and leaden.

If only I could see you

and explain

me, my music

your voice, your smile

everything.

Until then I have found

other ways

back ways

to guide and protect

my one, my only

dear sweet Christine

who does not know me

save as the dreadful Phantom.

I think I love you. Even though I don't know what love is. All I know, is you make me smile. You make me feel better even when my head feels heavy and I feel like a mess. I know, that being around you, heals me in some way. And I know that I could look at you all day. I know that even in this hazy state, when my body is warmer than its supposed to be and my voice is leaving me, just one look at you, just one message from you is all I need. I know, that I crave your attention and I know that even though you're looking at her, seeing you happy is all I need.

Sometimes I wish I could see what you wanted,

Sometimes I wish I could see colours around you.

I want to see you smile,

but when the words just come out,

I realise that they are wrong,

because I see your frown.

I want to see your colours,

The feelings of your heart.

I want to see how you really feel,

I wonder when I can start.

Are you childish enough to believe

Such gruel could come

From the mind of 

A Kitten?

Or

Perhaps

You're not.

The brightest eyes

The cat, the brain eater

The cat, the playful mutilator

All of this time, the thing you thought

You knew was never what you knew at all.

She sits, sipping her coffee through 

Stained teeth, whitened with

Baking soda toothpaste

She will suck the 

Molecules in

Then eat

The 

Demon

Air in order

To allow herself

The time to prepare

To become the Monster

That is Dormant

In Hibernation

Somewhere

Deep

In

There.

She dies a thousand little deaths,

every time he leaves

His whispers, etched epitaphs

marking his arrivals and departures

Her body, left behind

to mourn over the graves

My friend Clara visited me most days.

We laughed and we played. She's new here so I liked to drag her around town and show her my favorite parks and toy stores. She was mean at first, but now she doesn't say anything mean! But one day we were walking around singing. My momma started screaming at me, sayin Clara couldnt play no more. I didn't know what was wrong, the other people at the park were cheering on our show. But momma just screamed at me and called someone on her phone. Then they came and zipped Clara into a black bag and wheeled her away. I yelled goodbye to her, but she didn't respond. Guess she couldnt hear me. 

Hello. I've been expecting you. You knocked on the door yesterday and ran away.

I recognize you, but you only show your face when no one else is here.

Are you really here? Then why do you not speak?

The pain in my side slithered into my brain and now I see what is not there.

Death, my sister, greet me and take me with you.

The world is cracking in front of my eyes,

I do feel the breaking sound of my bones,

The pressure inside my chest beginning to rise,

The abnormal sensation taking me down low,

I see his eyes on me and the danger is soon to be here,

My body is a broken glass, shattered and fragile now,

He knows I don't want to be here, crying and soon to be gone,

"Cmon baby, it's time for you to moan"

He approaches me and I feel the fire, abnormal and unwanted desire,

My body curls at his approach, wanting to go but can't move at all,

There's a light behind his frame, it's powerful and bringing this to an end,

I watch carefully and pray for my savior, he is light and won't hurt me anymore,

He grabs my face and pushes me hard, my back is hurting and so my heart,

The white light pushes him away, the light holds me and now I'm safe,

The world was cracking before my eyes, but now there's my light and the light I want to love,

He holds me tight and kisses my face, the warmth of his lips feel so grace,

My eyes soon close, feeling the darkness.

"Goodbye my love, I have to go. I love you, but love yourself more"

My body falls, but he holds me up, his hands pushing me closer but I know I'm not staying any longer. . .