Routine
Oh, I'd like to get noticed...
Focused...
On me.
You were there when I was broken..
A broken heart
Someone shattered me.
No, that ain't no surprise.
Tons of lives die every week..
We all are corrupted in our minds.
Say goodbye to the weak.
I wake up everyday
No secret that I wish I was dead
Religion keeps me breathing air
Suicide=you're going to hell.
Poor Judas Iscariot...
It's just not fair, it's never fair.
Wear your mask, like someone would care
Same old routine, routine, routine, routine.
I'm not crazy if I saw a demon on the ceiling.
Oh, strict mothers.
Strict and heavy sleepers.
What's happening? I see myself in a box. Chained up and locked.
Life is secretly this no matter if you're poor or rich.
You speak something like this, people would think you're ridiculous.
I'm called as a prophetess = time to deal with Satan and his idiots. I don't remember a contract to life? Why this? I get this? I want God. I die every time I wake up. I can't be selfish. It's a sin, always a sin, every step is a sin. Can someone tell my mother that I'm not perfect?
Father says I'm just too different.
Perfect. Perfect. PeRfect. P e r f e c t. PERFECT.
I tell God I'm ready for judgment day cuz I'm just over it
Beauty is Pain
Tired of imagining
Tired of acting
Oh, how I wish that was me
Cat-fishing
Is now existing
Mirror, mirror
What is my birth error?
Is it my looks or personality?
A shame that I desire plastic surgery
Many of my boyfriends couldn't stand
My insecurities
Surprisingly they loved me
Will I ever be happy?
Needle, my new friend
Tell me what are the new beauty trends
Killing yourself over depression
Or being single?
Because I don't know how to mingle
Everyday
I masturbate
I don't have the skills to get a real life date
If only my relationship skills were better
I could one day get that real pleasure
Too bad
Too sad
I am such a fake
Lessons learned and lessons made
How I wish I had her face
But I see you aren't a loner
Only they would understand my problems
Cuz most likely they did the same
You can't blame me
For pretending
My mindset filled with insecurities
I can be pervy
I can be sexy and dirty
When I fake her face
But if you aren't born with it
It's best you'd stay the same
Cuz this world only accepts the people that are pretty
Million dollars for such compliments
Personality is nothing these days
Such a shame looks get grades
Such a shame I'm not even on the rank
Such a shame beauty is pain
Perfection.
Please smile and be sweet.
Don't let them know you're weak.
Show them that you're perfect like me.
I'm your mother and I'm here to make your dreams.
You will not be like your father.
He was influenced by the devil.
He always caused too much trouble.
I should've put him in the hospital.
Its like you're the puppet and I am the puppeteer.
Don't show them no fear.
You belong to me, not him.
He was the one that was filled with sin.
I'm the one that has always been cleansed.
You will listen to me, not him.
You may call this controlling.
But I your mother calls this patrolling...
Broken Hearts.
Why did you love hurting me...
I'm the queen...
Of all broken hearts...
I'm the one who is depressed of them all...
When I close my eyes and sleep...
All the things I dream...
Likes to bully me...
Nightmares it seems...
You are suppose to be my lover...
But all you do is leave me...
If I am in trouble...
You seem so satisfied ...
If I cry....
All day and night...
Right when you leave me...
I start to bleed...
Now I'm keen...
To find someone else...
If I gotten plastic surgery...
And I came out pretty...
Will you start to notice me....
My dream...
Of you and me..
Is now gone...
Shatter into pieces ...
The hypnotized...
Eyes ...
I had for you is gone...
You can't have my cake anymore...
My heart is feeling like it'll be forever sore...
Let's start to move on...
Is this wrong...
This is the feeling I always felt...
Depressed...
What a mess...
When we were together...
Now I know we weren't meant to last forever ..
You abuser...
You womanizer..
I think I'm fine...
I'm happy now that we are not together...
Romeo And Juliet .
My perfect lover is gone...
And I am singing this depressing song...
And I just have to try to hold on...
Even though I feel like giving up...
Cleanup...
All the wrong things that are in my heart...
If I wanna mess up...
The deadly pills are in that cup...
To end it all...
Shut up...
You don't mind her...
She is just doing her job...
Killing herself...
Killing herself...
Her life needs help...
Her life is just not well...
Without her love one...
She's killing herself....
All the things she has dealt...
With..
Mama she's gone...
Mama she's gone...
To run off to paradise...
With her love one...
With her love one...
Say your goodbyes because them lovers are both gone...
Asylum.
Can somebody call for help...
Get me out of this cell...
I don't belong here...in this insane asylum...
It just amazes me...
That nobody cares..
That I am stuck...in this insane asylum...
Do you think I'm crazy...
Do you think I'm out of my mind...
Please take me out...
I'm hearing other inmates freaking out...
I am always hearing shouts...
I'm tired...
I think I am hallucinating...
When I'm hopefully out I'll be celebrating...
Tell them I'm normal...
I guess I have to show them...
That I'm not like the others...
Who is full of troubles...
I know how to count to one hundred...
Oh how I wonder...
If there is a cure..
Or it's an everlasting curse...
I can't be stuck in here...
Gasping for air...
Get me out of here...
I'm always in tears...
I wish I had some pills...
I'm not mentally ill...
But I'm stuck in an insane asylum...
S-Stuck in an asylum...
I'm not insane...
But they still took me away...
I-I'm not insane...
In the dark I stay today...
I'm not insane...
Tell them I'm perfectly tamed...
I'm so afraid...
In this insane asylum...
Adam And Eve.
I believe...
That no one can see...
What I really mean...
That no one can understand my feelings...
I feel like dying...
I never ate the apple from the tree...
Why am I here...
Can you please wipe all my tears...
Thank you...
Mom and dad...
Eve and Adam..
Yes this might be sarcasm...
I love my life...
No..I'm not terrified...
Thank you for eating the apple..
Why would you talk to a snake..
Yes I am questioning it...
When someone says you must have faith...
Today in this world if you say that you'll get shot dead...
Welcome to America...
No no..welcome to this corrupt world..
Mom and Dad you made it an disaster.
So I must say to this boy and girl..
Welcome to America...
Welcome to America...
Here we always get shot..
Welcome to America...
Welcome to America..
Welcome to this corrupt world...
Enjoy it while it last little girl...
In Revelation it says it will get worse..
Play.
Children go out and play...
When they grow up...they'll learn to masturbate.
That's why they're always late.
Coming to the dinner table with their plate.
Go and choke on a piece of cake.
Or go drown in the lake...
No food for you.
You disobeyed your mother's rules.
Those closed doors are children crying in their rooms.
Growing up and learning more.
You'll start to think they are worthless trash...
If you have no kids you must be glad.
Haha, virgins...
Watch them all play their sexual games..
Always get high or runaway...
See different color condoms in their rooms...
Oh well...you tried...you lose..
You'll get pregnant real soon...
Go die for goodness sake...
Maybe you'll find dead babies in the lake.
All the money will be passed on to me...
The money I shall take...
Oh pain is bittersweet...
All the children's blood I shall keep...
All the liquor I will buy and drink...
Call me crazy or a freak...
When it's time for me to die...
I'll die in peace...
“That's the story of, that's the glory of love.”