See me.

Really see me.

Look into my soul.

Look at it deeply.

Do you see a piece of you there?

Do you see the broken pieces that has been put back together with tape?

Do you see all the empty promises, all the heart breaks, all the memories that has gone past?

Do you see?

Do you see me?

Look at me.

Truly.

Deeply.

Just look at me.

And soon you’ll see.

You’ll see me.

Beep.. Beep... Beep...

The hum of the hospital machine woke Lily up from her restless slumber.

As her eyes fluttered open, she looked around to see who was around. Of course in that moment no one was there. Looking at the time, she realized it made sense for no one to be there. The sun was just starting to rise. Blinking slowly, she realized...It was all quiet.

Closing her eyes, she decided that a little more sleep wouldn't hurt. A few mins passed, and it wasn't long till she felt someone caressing her forehead. As her eyes fluttered open again, she was shocked to see that it was her mother.... Her mother who passed away when she was only 8 years old.

"Momma?", her frail voice whispered as she look up at her with her big brown eyes.

"Oh my sweet, sweet child. My little Lily." Rose said as she caressed her daughters hair lovingly. Rose was a beautiful woman. It was obvious where Lily got her looks from.

"Momma? This isn't real." Lily said in a soft tone. "Oh no. Oh no, no, no." Lily continued as she realized what was happening. She was dying. She knew that. Her condition was getting worse. Tears were threatening to spill from her eyes.

"Oh my sweet flower, just close your eyes. I'm here to guide you. Don't you worry baby. Mommas got you." Rose said as she moved her hands to close Lily's eyes. Lily was stubborn though. So as soon as Rose closed Lily's eyes, Lily opened them right up.

"I-I'm not... I'm not ready to die! I haven't done anything worthy. I haven't left my mark on the world. Please. Please Momma." Lily whimpered as tears streamed down her face.

"Lily. You've made a mark on the world. Come on. Close your eyes and listen to me." Rose said as she kissed Lily's forehead. Wiping her face to rid herself of the tears, Lily closed her eyes. "Take a deep breathe, darling. You've helped so many people in your life. You've showed and given people love. You were someone's first friend. You will forever be imprinted in the lives of those you met.", Rose continued as she held on to one of Lily's hand.

Thinking back on every moment Lily had with her family and friends, a tear leaked out of her closed eye. As her memories played like a movie in her mind, she said with a smile "I'm ready." As she took her last breath.

These are the words that I'll say....

"Please stay..."

"I need you. I need you to be with me. I'm drowning and you're keeping me alive."

"Love me. Choose me."

"I may not be your first choice but I'll be fine being your second. I can live with that. I can love us enough for the both of us."

These are the words that I never said.....

("Please stay...") "I don't need you. Just leave me alone!"

("I need you. I need you to be with me. I'm drowning and you're keeping me alive.") "If you want to go, then just go! I can survive with out you. I'm my own anchor! I don't need anyone but myself..."

("Love me. Choose me.") "There shouldn't be a choice. If you loved me enough then there wouldn't even be a choice. You already know what you want... and what you want isn't me."

("I may not be your first choice... but I'll be fine being your second.... I can live with that. I can love us enough for the both of us.") "I want to be the first choice! I can't settle for second.... What does that say about someone who would be fine being a second choice? You'll never love me enough. I'm not strong enough to love us enough for the both of us. I would never be able to live with myself."

"You should have told me." I said as I paused and took a deep breath to keep my tears at bay. "You should have told me you were bad for me...." I trailed off as a tear slipped out. I quickly wiped the tear away and pushed my long, black, unruly straight hair out of my face. Emerald eyes locked with Blue eyes.

"Look Raven, you heard the rumors. You knew what you were getting into." James said with an insufferable smirk. Disappointed, your plump pink lips formed a sadistic smile. You gazed at James, almost as if you were taking him in. He had black unruly hair, deep ocean blue eyes, and a build that seemed to attract half the female human race.

"You're right. I should have known." I said slowly taking my gaze off of him. "I guess I was just being stupid." I finished as my sadistic smile turned into a frown. Walking toward him, I got close enough that our chest almost touched. Whispering softly as I looked up to his eyes, I continued "Maybe I thought you were different. That the world wasn't all messed up. That maybe good people do exist, and people were just envious enough to make up rumors."

Noticing his hands trying to caress my face, I closed my eyes and let a breath of air out. "Oh Rave..." He whispered as he took a deep breath and brought his hand down. Opening my eyes, I could see the regret in his eyes. "I can't make you the best that you are. The worst of me....it's bringing out the worst in you. You don't want to admit it but this is for the best... for both of us" He concluded as he took a few steps back.

"I know you. You think you're such a bad boy? No, you're nothing but a sad boy." I say gulping back the sob in my throat. "I truly hope you find someone who can bring out the best in you. Letting you go....letting us go, it'll make me stronger. And I know I will be fine. I don't need to depend on anyone. I can be the best that I am all on my own. I'm my own anchor." I said as I take one last look at him. Turning around, I walked and left with the words I needed to say. Letting him go will be for the best....sometimes all you have to do is.... Let go.

If you love me, please remind me to forget you...

Please. Remind me.

Tell me I'm better off without you. That I don't need you. Ignore me. Be a jerk to me.

Let me be reminded that you are not what I need. Tell me 'It's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.' Tell me until I have no choice but to believe it. Do not keep me locked up. Don't be selfish. Even if it hurts, let me go. Tell me to go. Even if my heart is shattering right in front of you. Do not keep me for that sake of being. If you truly love me as much as you say you do then please remind me to forget you.

Sometimes I get Sad. Randomly. And I don't even know why.... It's like I'm alone and I have no one to turn to. Imagine that.

In a room full of people how can I possibly feel lonely. "What can I say? I'm a sad girl." They don't believe me. Why would they? I'm all smiles and laughter and goodness in the world. But I'm also dark and depressed and hurt. So, so, so hurt......Cause I have issues. And no one seems to care enough. My best-est of friends go on with their lives. I'm never enough. I'm like a fly on the wall. No one notices.... if they did they're probably see me breaking. I guess that's how the world is. Put on a mask and tell the world "I'm fine. I'm totally fine." Cause no one wants to deal with someone who isn't okay.

My father is a quiet, steady man. Religious and a level headed man. Took the role as a mother when his wife died. Raised 4 strong, bright daughters. There aren't enough thank yous' in this world. He's one people wish they could be. He's everything I could ever want in a father. Loves and loves unconditionally. I'll always be a daddy's girl. I am who I am and it's all thanks to him.

The barn that I see

Is like unkept dreams

Neglected and lifeless

Abandoned and isolated

Once full of life

Now gone to perish

Once a vision full of hopes

Now a sad lonely home

Rusty nails, Dirty-caked floors

Falling apart, and barely breathing

Haunted and scary

Sabotaged by nature

Beautiful red that has

Chipped away

Slowly and slowly

One by one

The barn that I see

Is all alone like all those dreams

That are now destroyed

You just lost your mother. It's tough. It's hard. It's sad and dreadful. The pain, I can imagine must feel like a dozen arrows breaking your heart. The loneliness you feel will be strong but just know I'll be there. The loss of a mother is forever. This pain you feel won't just go away. It never will but you will learn to live with it. And every step you take, every moment you live, I'll be there. There will be events in your life that will make you miss her the most. Just know I'm by your side. I'll be there. I'll hug you and stay with you. I'll help you feel less sad. I'll ride your sadness with you. I'll be whatever you need. Even when I don't understand, I'll still be here. It's okay to be sad. Be as sad as you need to be. But come to me when you need to talk. Don't keep it in. I'll be your confidant. So you can hold my hand and cry on my shoulder, whatever you need I'll be there. @justaperson

I hope this helps.... I lost my mom years ago and this is what I would of wanted from my friend...