The story
It was never supposed to be like this
I never wanted to enjoy this day
My clothes scattered everywhere
Everything by everyone on display
I did the deed and sealed the deal
Where lust lies now in time
I enjoyed every minute of it
My virtue gone before nine
Then the sun came rising up
It was summer and it got dark later
Every thought I tried to block
I ended up acting like a marriage hater
I didn't mean to start the affair
I asked my husband if it was okay
Then he said yes and cheered me on
My virtue gone by the end of the day
I don't know if I should be sorry
I know nothing about what to do
So now a kiss ass night I've had
Will transform me into ruin
I know that I can't tell my friends
For it was them that I cheated on
I gave into peer pressure and sin
Now I don't want my friends to be gone
If I tell and if I continue
I wont be able to stop
If I admit to any of this
Then my life will start to flop
I don't want anyone to think
That this is anything I actually do
I'm brighter then most may think
But it's a kiss ass tale I'll tell you
So now that I've got you all wound up
All filled with lust in bed
Try to get this story out of sight out of mind
And rest your sex filled heads
The fall
I knelt before the throne
Where the almighty sat and stared
One waiting to smother me
The other with a sword above my head
I didn't know this is what it would be like
To have the gods mad at you
For someone I thought who was my friend
They spoke of the wrongs that I committed too
I slept with many husbands
The wives all hate me now
I walked naked through the towns square
Everyone laughed and then I bowed
I read some dirty stories
I acted once I read-
And I guess you all can guess what they were
The books are on the night stand by my bed
Then when I tried to go to sleep
The Gods took me in the night
Where now I stand in heaven
Trying to toughen out the night-
I pray that they don't hurt me
I would rather be a slave
Wipe the poop from all our enemies
Have sex until the end of days
So now I beg and plead
For my soul, my life, my all
Then I watch a silver light above my head
My life flashed before my fall
Prevailed
The ritual was set to produce ashes from the bones
Cleansing by the fire for a sin they need to atone-
I didn't understand what was happening
As the body rose and bled
Where once was a living person
Was burned by fire instead
I didn't ever wish to be them
I hoped that no one else ever would-
I wouldn't wish this upon anybody
and I Don't ever want to sacrifice flesh and blood
I heard the fatal cry
As she left the holy veil
From this world into another
Cleansed in fire
We then prevailed
Aren’t mine
I thought I had the moment
I thought I had the time
I thought I had the words to say, but no they were lost- yes mine
I thought I had the moment
I thought I had the day
I thought I would see you take your last breath, but no time got away
I thought I had the moment
I thought I had the time
I thought that I could awake from this night mare
The one where you aren't mine
The wind
I thought I heard a whisper one day
They were voices inside my head
Don't do it! Don't do it! I heard it say
It's something that you'll always dread
I thought I heard a voice one day
I know that I heard it right-
I dreamt of what would happen next.
The voice whispered to me late last night
Don't ruin what you have now
It's forever good and true
You know that you are truly blessed-
Don't ruin what's good for you
I don't want everything to be in ruins
But no structure can stand forever still-
Just like the choice I had to make-
Do I stay miserable, or do I leave at my own free will?
It's not a choice that I would ever wish
Upon anyone alive-
Don't ruin what you are blessed with
You're family will help you thrive
You set goals that are well within your means
You'll get there soon I know it-
If you quit now-
That's it- you quit-
And no reward to show for it
You have people that love you
Don't let the mean whispers win!
I thought I heard a voice that night
Now it's drowned out by the wind.
On my own
While I breathe, I hope that I don't give myself away.
I no longer have the thoughts or feelings, felt from yesterday.
Yes, one day I loved you and now I had to choose.
I just didn't want to loose you-
But there was nothing else I could do
So I write my secret shame here
I exhale my every breath.
I hope that no one close can hear-
Myself beating in my chest
I was treated like a charity.
Like a project for the poor
I told you that I could pay
But all you did was ask for more
So I donated my time.
My every blood sweat and tear
My feelings aren't a crime
But that's just what I fear
I don't love someone elses husband
I just love my own
If this poem isn't enough to show that
Then I hope and breath on my own
The slash
I watch as the model struts naked in the living room
Her head held high; body shown in full bloom
I won't be enough
Is what I think and how I feel
Photos wont be enough, I'm mad at him and that's real
Why does he need to flaunt everyone else around?
I don't understand why temptation brings him down
I don't believe it when you say that you don't want to do things with them
I don't believe it when you say, that you don't want to be more then friends-
So now I sit and wonder
What you think while cameras flash
Photos just wont be enough
All of them I want to slash
Pity
A wedding cake, a long white dress, but is it mine? No, I'm sitting at the table at my crushes wedding. I shouldn't have come, but when they both asked me to be the maid of honor I couldn't say no. My best friend, and the guy that I had just met about three months ago that I had feelings for. I didn't want to be there but as a favor to the both of them, who had paid the fee for me to teach Tae kwon do in exchange for lessons was sitting across from me at the bride and grooms table. Everyone is taking selfies and having a good time, but why on earth did I check the yes box on the wedding invite? When the reception was close to done and the bride and groom started to slow dance, as happy as I was for them, I didn't want to watch this anymore. I didn't want to feel alone anymore. The first thing on my to do list was find someone like HIM, who made me entirely happy. I knew that day would come, but for now all I felt was pity.
Wrapped UP
I know that I shouldn't feel this way
The way he asks, how I am?
I smile and blush
I'm better now that I'm in his hands
He asked me now to hug him
Said his day was pretty bleak
I didn't tell him that I loved him
Those words would ruin my happy streak
I love it when he talks to me
He listens to me with good cheer
I want to say I love you
I want to whisper it in his ear
I would turn bright red all over
Now all I think about is fear
Wrapped up in your arms I feel safe and I feel loved
You tell me that you're proud of me
I'm Gods gift from above
I help you with your classes
Were friends at the very least
But for now I enjoy your company
And the treasure words that I want to keep
Sad
I stand out there alone in the cold
Warm and embarrassed, and now just alone
I told you how it felt and you said nothing back
I stood there in shock
When the sharp winds of winter attacked
We stood there in silence and you said "Lets just be friends"
My on going nightmare
I should have said nothing to them instead
But why did I admit to him, these feelings that I had?
I know that he didn't like me
Now I'm alone, and cold and sad