Look my way just one more time

Before the clock strikes 12

Descending us into the nights darkness

This light won't last forever

Nothing ever does

Walk with me one last time

Before we drift apart into the sea

The tides sway back and forth

With such force

Like the heart does when falling in and Out of love

The wind blows around us

As we take a deep breath and

Say goodbye

For one last time...

I drink a cocktail of moonlight, full of your memory.

Sitting idle as you intoxicate my blood.

You pump through my veins like a tantalizing mix.

Drenched in the dreamy night sky of wet lust and tingling love.

Left with the sweet after taste,

of the moonlight at midnight.....

Love is a iffy kind of f@#k

You never know if you'll have good luck

Some days are sunshine and pretty roses

Others are get out of my life you dreadful free loader!!

So you throw the dice to see what you get.

This time I won't even place that bet!!

Free from what you need me to do.

Whoever said love is great,

I rather get tattooed!!

You get all of me

You take me somewhere no one else has ever

And Can never

You calm my chaotic thoughts

You calm my soul

You get me

all of me

100%

I am puzzled continuously that not everyone sees the world how I do. It saddens me. I try to explain things through my eyes to someone and they just don't understand. I'm the type of girl who sees the sun setting and does not look at the sunset like most would. I'm the girl who looks at the trees and how the sun hits them in such a way that the branches turn golden and if you wait long enough and find the right time the sun goes down till the sky is a late blue, the trees turn to silhouettes and leave me thinking of the unknown that lays beneath the protection of darkness. I'm the girl who looks at someone's eyes and sees everything, they say the eyes are the windows to the soul, oh how true that is. I always tell my boyfriend his eyes remind me of the oceans foam, no they are not blue. They are a mix of teal and mint green with a little brown Somtimes. It reminds me of when the oceans tide grows and leaves soft bubbles at the waters edge. I notice the little things. Like when someone gets quiet because they feel uncomfortable or when someone gets really loud when they are happy. I notice changes in tones and body movements. I'm the type of girl who quite literally can find beauty in the most uncommon things. Like how the the river runs over the small stones on the bed and looks almost glass like, it's something you soon feel compelled to dip your fingers in. I notice how in the fall the leaves change colors but I notice the feelings it gives me and how happy I become. It's such a warming sensation to be surrounded by so many colors how the air goes from being kind of musty and turns into a crisp clean smell, how it becomes easier to breath and think. I notice how freckles align on someone's shoulders or how they have a birth mark above their eye. The things people find to be flaws in themselves are what interest me the most. The scars people wear inside and out, make me question their stories and where they came from. I think people are inherently beautiful. Some people make bad choices but there is always a light in the darkness somewhere you just have to dig deep enough. There are always things that lead up to a persons actions, remember that. Most people, you will find have very large hearts that beat inside of them. I find beauty in the mornings when I hear my mother singing loudly and not very well I might add but I get joy because I know she's happy. I could go on and on but just remember to take a step back somtimes and look around you and you'll inevitably find something breath taking.

There's nothing like driving down Hollywood Blvd. on a Friday night, mass sex appeal drenches the streets. Gorgeous men with tatted arms and chests, cruising their old school rides and loud beefy motorcycles with ape hangers. Damn, I have to admit these sexy rockabilly guys drive me wild!

My girls and I always cruise out on nights like this. We love to get away from mommy mode and let our hair down, just to feel free again for one night.

When we finally got to the club where our friend's band was playing, We walked up and passed the long line, " We're with the band." I told this big guy standing at the door. As I then handed him our passes, He looked us up and down, checking all of us chicks out, like he was some smoking hot piece of ass, that all of us wanted to fuck. More like he smelt like stale smoke and sweaty hot ass. He was disgusting!

The night started off great and the band killed it for sure, but I was looking for something more this time. I didn't know what, I guess just a different kind of excitement.

Then I spotted him, he was tall with dark hair and had a touch of silver streaks through out his black shiny locks. We made eye contact at the exact same time, and he instantly winked at me. He had a smile that would drive even a prude nun crazy! I noticed him starting to walk over to me and I got super nervous. I usually just use these men as eye candy, but I never actually talk to them. With me now separated after being married for 15 years, I was not about to jump into bed with just anyone, Plus one night stands were never my style. But damn it had been months since I had a mans touch and I was craving it, but not desperately. I was never without plenty of opportunities. I just haven't been ready. As I watched him walk up to me, I started thinking maybe it's time for me to open up again. It's a scary thing to think about, it's like a funky grey or silver area, sex after divorce.

After hours of talking we both felt the intense chemistry between us, we some how ended up in the back area making out. It was the weirdest thing having another mans tongue in my mouth. Not saying it wasn't nice, it was indeed, but I had only kissed one man since I was 20, my ex. Now I'm older at the ripe age of 39, way passed my prime. At least that's how I feel, they say a women sexually peaks in her 30's. I would have to agree with that for sure! My body just can't seem to get enough now a days.

I knew it wasn't my usual style to do this, But, even though it was new and different it felt damn good!

His hands ran up and down my body like he was feeling a woman for the first time. Little did he know this was practically my first time again. He had the strongest yet most seductive touch I had ever felt. Well, I don't have many to compare him to but it felt great and I wanted more from him.

We then decided to go back to my place since my kids were with their grandparents. As soon as we got there we started to strip each others clothes off! Oh the feeling of him kissing and biting my neck was driving me insane. Luckily, I already had on sexy red g-string, since I refuse to wear granny panties, I'm not that old yet!

Then I just knew what was going to happen, he pulled my panties down slowly, spread my legs farther open and his head started to go down.

Oh my! The way he moved his tongue all around, I could have came in his mouth right then! I had to hold back. I was not about to finish before him, telling myself to relax and just enjoy it.

I was melting literally into his mouth. I got even more excited as I heard him saying how soft my lips were and how I tasted so sweet.

Now, I just knew sex was next, all I could think was "shit!, what if I'm not good anymore, is it like riding a bike?" What if I forgot what men like!" I started trembling from being so nervous. He must have noticed and he started taking it slower.

He got on top of me, I felt his hard dick right in between my legs but he didn't put it inside me.He softly let it rub against me,teasing my body. He held my arms above my head and squeezed them as he started kissing my neck slowly, then moving down till he was sucking on my nipples with his juicy tongue. He brushed his fingers through my long hair, then getting a good grab on it. I was in complete heaven and so into it, the next thing I knew he was inside me. Thrusting slowly in and out. Harder and faster as we went. It had been so long for me, It actually started to hurt. I was convinced I was a born again virgin! "I can't believe I'm doing this! I must be insane." I thought to myself.

Then It hit me, I'm a fucking adult. Not married and its ok to do this. Sex after divorce maybe scary but it's not forbidden. I'm a sexy ass women and it's hella fun!

You asked me " Do you need me?"

I took a deep breath and a leap of faith.

"I do need you!"

I need you like the earth needs the sun.

I need you like the night needs the moon.

Where we stand today in this moment, is not a moment to soon.

I value this future vision I see us in,

Walking on a beach hand in hand.

These days will forever burn in my mind.

With our feet together in the sand.

Let's sit here for ever, may time stand still.

Your hands in mine,

I will finally feel.

After you came into my life,

I was never the same.

You showed me the way to happiness,

I will never walk away.

Hello there Facebooky,

Hear me!

Tick, tick, tockey

Eating on the screen

At kento-key

My thumbs are up anyway

My tongue vomiting

Ink in gray

Oh, I like your but-ch

And your selfie

In the underwear

Lemme taste your lunch?

I like this and this and that

Lemme tell my friends

In the other room

They also might like to chat

Tick, tick, tockey

I do not eat at

Kento-key

And I’m also (A)nut

Facebook-y.

-Ok, lemme go wash my hands now-

~~~teshhh~~~

#facebook #poetry

Frozen here

In panic and fear

I cannot move forward

I can no longer react

My body just seized

I'm under attack

I try to breathe

But it's suffocating me

What's on my mind to

Cause such distress

Things I have said and all my regrets

The trembles start and the

Fast beating heart

My mind in a cage with thoughts I Can't explain

Trying to understand it

Leaves me feeling emotionally drained

At times I feel like a empty shell

Living in anxieties personal Hell

My mind is a prison

Maximum security

These emotions in me

Are extremely debilitating

Anxiety's no joke

It's real

Not fake

A mental race

I can never escape

Is it possible,

To find love through,

a screen and words?

Is it a blessing or would it be a curse?

Can you honestly know someone

without meeting face to face?

Will passion ignite if your both in a different place?

Is it simply intriguing,

something possibly deceiving?

When you merely read words,

Can hearts skip beats?

Isn't physical love what we

all tend to seek?

Can you feel them from afar,

Letting them know how important they are?

Can love bloom from soul to soul,

Or is it just lust

How is one to truly know?

Will you forever be alone in the dark,

When you have a bad day

and fall apart?

When you need their touch,

Are you forever left to yearn?

Can you get comfort from a screen?

Is finding love this way a nightmare or a dream?

Could it turn into ever lasting love or

Is it just a cat and mouse chase?

Does anyone ever end up meeting

Face to face?