you awaken me from dreams

with the most beautiful light i have ever seen

then you coax me back to sleep

with the knowing that you will never leave.

you present yourself in times when i am challenged,

at a crossroad or

feeling damaged.

i feel your embrace,

hear your words repeating themselves

until they resonate in me,

that i am good enough and who cares what anyone else thinks,

fuck them janky hoes anyway

More likely than not

we would be celebrating

over thirty years of marriage

surrounded by some

half a dozen children

perhaps even a grandchild or two

him smiling, satsfied,

all his dreams fulfilled,

a possessive arm

holding me close, tightly

me smiling, a brittle smile

perhaps

wondering who I might have been

what I might have done

if only

I had believed I was worth loving

that someone who dreamed

with me

might one day

love me

as I was

not bend me

to his desired shape;

probably I'd be

sunk in the morass of a

midlife crisis

trying not to regret

all the places I'd never visited,

lived, loved

the things I'd never read

studied, researched, learned

taught

firmly sweeping regret to the side

as I embraced

the only love

I'd ever known.

A new room

ready to be filled,

remains empty

gifts returned unused

furniture sold untouched

a name lingers unspoken

a heartbeat now silent

memories stay

our expected visitor

never arrived

Why drink

or swim 

In gin-clear

water when

there is gin?

Be classy ladies

But show some skin

We all are beautiful

But you'd better stay thin

Speak your opinion

Then find a looney bin

Be nice and modest

But let us unpin

That dress that your wearing

Don't be a has been

The shelves are lined

With skirts tiny and trim

So we'll show some leg

On our way to the gym

We are a product

Sold by lust and sin

Even the billboards

Wear only a grin

I want you so bad, but it makes me so mad.

I want to touch you, to feel you,

So much that I unpeel you.

Layer by layer, but it doesn't seem fair.

I've wanted you here for nearly 10 years,

Beside me, before me, as long as you're for me.

I try and I try, but it doesn't make sense why

You tease me, you please me, do all but seize me.

I love you as much as the day we met,

but sometimes it seems like you almost regret

the feelings you have because they are true

So much that when you're with me, you come unglued. 

she

tried her

best to stop

falling fast for

people who will not

last and people who could

not care less except for when

she was undressed and people like

him with big words, sophistication

and an i r r e s i s t i b l e temptation.

He will find another girl with coffee breath and I just hope that when he kisses her he doesn't think of me

He will find another girl with unshaven legs and a moan like crashing waves and I just hope that when he fucks her he doesn't say my name

He will find another girl who bites her cheeks whose nose wrinkles when she laughs whose eyes sometimes leak and I just hope that when he holds her he doesn't miss me

He will find another girl with cold hands that set his skin on fire and I just hope that when he finds her he'll still remember me