You’re Not Here Anymore
You walked out the door last night,
and left me all alone,
I laid across my bed and wept,
of dreams of you as I slept.
Whatever happened to the days we shared;
when we laughed, loved, and cared,
you turned your back on me,
now I don’t know who I want to be.
You’re not here anymore to hold my hand
and tell me things are all right.
You’re not here anymore to wrap your arms around me,
and hold me through the night.
My life is dark and filled with misery,
each room I walk into reminds me,
of another part of you;
it’s hard to believe we’re through.
When you held me, I felt like a queen,
you were my king, at least so it seemed,
you were my diamond that fell from the sky,
now I’m alone in my tears, asking myself why …
You’re not here anymore to hold my hand,
and tell me things are all right.
You’re not here anymore to wrap your arms around me,
and hold me through the night.
You’re not here anymore,
You’re not here anymore,
No, you’re not here … anymore.
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This gives you an idea what it sounds like.
Little rough around the edges,
but with no actual music,
it's the best I can do.
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https://voicespice.com/Player.aspx?c=p&h=F2ED0CEA&j=1BBB8A
Heatstroke
V1
She itches
Itches like the salt and the sea and my conscience
Way up northern bound musicians
And the snails she’s stepped on
Convinced herself were loved
CHORUS
Rim ta tim
Oh---
Oh--
Oh Oh (x2 full stanza)
V2
She burns
Oh, she burns just like a plane that detracts from the skyline
Floats down New York in a bottle
Calls herself a hot mess and wonders
But you know she dreams a lot
CHORUS
Bridge
And if they told you you’d get where they loved you, they lied
If they told you you’d get where you loved them, they lied
They lied, oh oh oh
And if they said that you wished in a bottle and maybe it’d come true
Throw it in the Saint Laurent and let the buzzards feed on breakage
And distrust
Then this time, maybe it’s on you.
V3
Oh, she loves
Loves like sleeping on the ocean
Watch the ruination fall on the beach
Maybe next season she can keep her time
A man who can’t love may be the worst form of exhaustion
But you know she dreams a lot
CHORUS
dissection
dark green skins against immaculate white countertops
sunlight reflected on shiny metal, sharpness slit open
the tightness of death held the dried-up frog together,
without leaving a stain of blood even as the vessels broke.
how i wish you would cut me open, unravelling my body
piece by piece, until you find the core of my dying heart,
your name engraved with scalpels on my soul. and yet
the frog lies wide open, in my head your shadow echoed,
as i held its heart in my hands, the pumping beneath
latex gloves, i think i saw the world through your eyes.
- deathetix
more than words
shooting through the sky
the stars are not enough . they are too much
your whole existence put in a bottle that is your body
your vessel
it rips you apart
it makes you whole
it chills you to the bone
it blazes deep until you are scorched and breathing in ash
there are flowers under your damaged roots
you are ruined but you are love ( whisper it )
you are love
gentle the ice that came from your galaxies
tender flames that leave holes
passion consuming your heart
you screamed out that name
and it sank in your foundation
you growled until they destroyed you . but did they, my love?
did they really?
no, they just left ragged spaces on your soul
but the moon in your veins
made you whole
the heat of the sun covering you in gold
home is close
even as the sky is empty . the stars burning
in your fractured wishes of the dawn
filled with flashing lights
you will never be lost
never truly lost
Burnt Orange (oil on canvas, circa 2020)
Of course, this has to be unique to
AlisonAudrey
so this will be about
insanity
If I could be a color, I would be burnt orange
and nothing rhymes with orange
so I will awkwardly
turn to my next stanza
As a writer, I see myself as someone
who sips on bourbon, lit inside, turnt up
a testament to the messed up
doing a metaphorical hair flip, pressing “publish”
While in the meantime
I see the world in bleak opaque demeanor,
never the same person
always talking up her achievements
Once I wrote a poem about comets
and expected it to get recognition
I did the same with schizophrenia
and wanted my pain to be cognizant
In reality, I am someone
who never plays the spade
but sits unaware,
in a daydream
I am a writer
who needs space to procreate
words, vocabulary
my contributions to Prose secondary
to my main talent,
which is sipping on red wine
unable to
see to the truth beyond hope, a timely demise
Oh Mom, I Hate to Go!
My bag is packed
I’m ready to go
I’m standing here
By the door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking
It’s early morn
The bus is waiting
It’s blowing it’s horn
Already I’m so bored that I could cry
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll bake for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leaving to go to high school
Don’t know if I’ll be back again
Oh Mom
I hate to go!
It’s been so long since I’ve been there
I feel excited
But I’m scared
I really wish that I could just stay home
But I’ll wear a mask
I’ll wash my hands
Six feet apart
Is where I’ll stand
I hope through all of this that I will grow
So don’t kiss me
But smile for me
Tell me that you’ll cook for me
You can’t hold me
But never let me go
Cause I’m leaving to go to high school
Don’t know if I’ll be back again
Oh Mom
I don’t want to go!
High school’s just one big charade
An awkward, insecure parade
Everybody finding their own way
Friends will come
And friends will go
Yet no one wants to be alone
So when I’m faced with another lonely day
Kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll pray for me
Hold me and
Never let me go
Cause I’m leaving to go to high school
Don't know if I’ll be back again
Oh Mom
I hate to go!
Mirror
What do you see when
you stand before the
mirror?
Do you see God’s image?
OR
Do you see the flaws and
errors?
Do you see the god/goddess
created in God’s image?
OR
Do you see who the world
wants you to be?
Much much less
Do you take for granted
the gift God gave?
The Gift of Life
Are you being man’s
slave,
doing as he says,
living in strife?
You are not created to
be a slave!
You are created to be...
God’s LOVE
to know the LIGHT.
Stand strong, be brave
YOU are THE
“Orginal Piece of Art”
Do You not see
YOUR own Beauty?
Do You not know
who you are?
YOU are perfect
YOU are worthy
OPEN your heart
and remember
begin your Journey
Show the world
YOU are God’s
Masterpiece
an “Orginal work of Art”
Athena
#poetry #selflove
uncommon difference
You're told that everyone is different
it's okay to be different
but if everyone is different
wouldn't that mean
that everyone is the same?
you not so different
you're more than that
like some sort of
uncommon difference
there's different
and then
there's you.
You are
the uncommon difference
stop hurting yourself
it's gonna be okay
But is it really?
You're all alone
Will you benefit from this?
is it like a class
a lesson to be learned
maybe
but you don't know
you can't see your future
is this going to end happily
or just end
just like that
you're dead
no one knows
because
you're not different
you're
The Uncommon Difference