a smile

trembling

on my face

hard fought

hard won

i can't help

but feel relief

because i've remembered

that normal is possible

only two days on the meds

just placebo, i know

but damn

i am grateful

for the lie

sunlight

hits my face

tears

roll down my cheeks

and i cry

not from panic

or fear

but because

i am happy

even for just

a split second.

Ruby heels clashing

checkered floors,

Your spear-azure eyes

pierce me at

the door.

What a delight,

pauses-

in your frosty

pink breath.

Each checkered

tile,

a mile.

Let us

rebel

this barrier for bleak hearts.

Some say we were too bright

we came in too fast

racing across the galaxy

leaving remnants of cosmic dust behind

as we crashed and burned into the earth

Splitting apart

faster than we came together

and all we have left are

memories floating above us

and permanent scars

etched across the earth.

I can read between the lines

I understand your pain

I want to help you

Please let me in

I love you

Please open the door

Help me heal my wounds

I hope you understand

I want to remind you

I love you.

I couldn’t be more sure

Of all the nostalgia I’d endure,

If I were to explore

A calf love crisis

That was so hard to cure,

How your mummy, she knew mine,

They’d been friends

For a little time,

And the time that you explained,

Your first name, it was Jane,

I really loved you, Jane,

But you only

Gave me pain,

You said ‘hello’ the first,

But it only ended for the worst.

In our local swimming pool,

I swam so close to you,

Did you smirk

To your bob-haired friend,

Between the deep and the shallow end?

So I just shyly slinked away,

Feeling such a fool that day,

Pet Clark reinforced

My bitter woe,

Singing My Love on the radio,

I really loved you, Jane,

But you only

Gave me pain,

You said ‘hello’ the first,

But it only ended for the worst.

How my heart can ache for the lonely,

Then I’d like to comfort them all,

Hold them close

Until their sorrow goes,

This great big world

Can seem so cold,

O woe, some end up alone,

Forlorn souls

Longing for someone,

That’s all,

Someone to save them,

What’s more, someone to love them.