there are just

too many

too many

uncertainties

when this is

all I have

I was sheltered

but now the torrent

it pummels my head

a storm that cares not

for me

for me

this is all for me

and yet you treat me

like dirt

the earth

soil and clay

I am easily malleable

impressionable

I am clay

I am clay

and I change always

so the matter is not

that everything

around me

changes shape

it is I who change

I am clay

of the Earth

I saw the best minds of my generation

Stuck

Down-right

Fucked

I saw them scratching their way through a

Master's

Then serving up French fries and Quarter Pounders

I saw the best minds of my generation

Dead

Tapped-out

Bled

I saw them stale next to a suicide note in a greenhouse

And then face plastered too late to come up as a god before

I saw the best minds of my generation

Tired

Worn-down

Flat

Sifting through piles upon piles of folded pink letters

And burning them with a flipped bird to the wind for good riddance

I saw the best minds of my generation

Confused

Over-drawn

Questioning

The seeds from which they were sown are the ones that have trampled

And then left them alone to pick up jagged pieces with soft hands

I saw the best minds of my generation

Dreaming

Far-reaching

Building

On fantasies we believed were always attainable if we just worked

And then dragged back down into the abyss of reality we knew not of

I believe I will see the best minds of my generation

Rise

Lift-up

Fight

Against the pre-inflicted oppression of pockets and races

And feed dead sentiment fistfuls of its own ashes

the way i feel

when you look at me

is a feeling unlike any other

authors have written about this

artists have painted about this

singers have sung about this

but i never quite knew

just how exquisite it is

to love and to be loved

until i fell for you

there's nothing i would rather do

than to sit and have a conversation with you

we could talk about everything in the world

or absolutely nothing at all

i always thought it was a cliche but it's true:

you make me want to be better

i want to be worthy of your love

i want to be the person you believe i am