I need to hear your voice

I need to feel your touch

I need to surround me with your being

I want your support emotionally

I want your help without asking

I want to be able to lean on you

I crave your conversation

I crave your stimulation

I crave your stability

I feel your strength surround me

I feel your warmth against me

I feel your need to own me

I see you get quiet

I see you start to pull away

I see you walk away

I will let you be

I will try to understand

I will not chase you

When you go silent......so will I

Every day I am put into a building full of people my age. We are forced through 50 minute periods of different styles of mental tortures. With the second period being physical and a 30 minute break to consume prepared food in between 5th and 6th periods. The torturer decides about every week and a half that we are ready to be tested and we take a long, complicated test. They grade them and our grades decide where we go for more torture after we are let out after 4 years. 

Or in other words, I go to high school. 

Today my win against depression was putting on clothes and brushing my hair.

Every day my win is to be able to go to work and not break down. 

I won't lie. I lose many days.

On those days I cry and cry for no reason.

On those days I stay in bed. I get tangles in my hair and huge knots.

But those are far apart. 

Depression is a War. with many many small battles.

But today I won 

I consider myself a poet over any other type of writer. Thus, my main thing is poetry. Lately, I haven't written that many poems because I was experimenting with other types of writing, but now I think I'm straying too far away from poetry. Relax the stories I have done will be continued.(Prose Universe, In Search of Truth, and Prince of Africa) I'm just going back to my roots. I'm going to experiment with different genres and/or styles of (for lack of better word) of poetry. (Ex. include The Devil's Whisper, Road Block, Mailman, and Internal War) Anyway, the main point is I'm getting back to my roots.