The wind screams my names

while de cave echoes

my heart aches

questions flow

unknowingly I go

What am I?

I asked

the wind flew

letting me unrest

"You're the moon"

I hear

from far around I saw

a cloud coming soon

"Am I?"

I said

the cloud

Oh, the cloud

beautifully standing

Walked to me

with small words

I hear softly

A name unknown

My ears feel

to the ground, I felt

the pain

of my heart

"Woman"

it said

"Woman?"

I replied

"Yes"

I heard

"Woman"

I felt

"You're the moon"

my heart stopped

"Why am I?"

I asked

"You're the moon"

It repeated

"Why?"

"Am I?"

"You are!"

so, I'm the moon

so, I fly around

so, that's me

so, I sat

one question I asked

"What's a woman?"

"You!"

it murmured

"Wasn't I the moon?"

"You are"

so, a woman is me

the moon is me

am I both?

am I one?

I am the moon

I am a woman

soon I noticed

through my eyes of gold

what I was meant to know

they are the same

and I am one

The world

made me thankful

The world

gave me words

of love

of hate

of passion

I am thankful

for my words

words are capable

of expressing thoughts

ideas

oneself

I am thankful

for expressing myself

The world

gave me voice

to fight for rights

I am thankful

for letting my voice out

out to the skies

to the group

to those who need it

The world

gave me a chance to living

living, being alive

stay here

awake

alive

I am thankful

for the right to be alive

The world

Gave me nature

to feel it

inside

outside

of me

thank you, world

for letting nature exist

persist

and resist

I am alive

a writer

an activist

an artist

and a lover

thank you for letting me be that!

I have the fear of living

it goes around my head

flipping me around

up and down I go

left and right I stay

down

down

down

I go

up and up

I miss

the beautiful days

but I have the fear now

and it gets worse

worse for each following day to be the worst

no desires

no passions

just fear

the hope goes away

with the wind

that flies over my head

one day

it got me

and I didn't feel like existing

like supporting it

so, the given up sensation won

and it was just over

the end of it

of the fear

I wish I could speak like them

breath like them

or even be like them

the impossibility of it

brings the pain of my desire to my head

it floods me

to leave me breathless

no explanations are needed for what I feel

I just want to be accepted

in a way or another

to breath the same air as them

to discover my world

I did not have peace as they

I had to try

to try to understand

maybe I wasn't meant to feel like them

to fell on the ground and get help

that is just not great

for some reason

this inequality exists

for some reason

it's here

and I feel that

by breathing as myself

You were there. All the time, you were there for me and the others. I swear I saw you well. Your eyes were giant full of life, your pupils. I could see the universe in them. Now for god's sake, why did you disappear?

That one question goes on and off my mind. Nothing comes as an answer.

You were always there for me. I thought I was for you as well.

How, Jesus, How did it all go wrong? Where did I mess up? Was I the one reason?

Why did you go and leave me here?

I swear I still love you, but I just don't understand.

My life was on you maybe this is what was wrong. Perhaps you had too much to deal with, it never went on my mind, but I think I was one of the things. Never mind how I feel, but explain to me: why did you go away?

I know some things have no explanation. Perhaps, it could have one. For the living of my soul, when did it all go down the drains?

For the living, you died. But never for me.

Please, let me make it right this time!

My words wave like a tornado

Putting down the desirable

By choice

I touch the untouchable

Breaking someone's voice

As I am able to say mine

In the middle of strong winds

My words flash by

Bringing me weeds

Of a new soil

I can't believe what I see

its temperament so unstable

somehow it's getting closer

closer to me

please go away

I screamed and it did not hear me

what the fuck?

I can't believe I will have to kill it

in click of my mind

I got in my attention that

it's a human

am I suppose to do something?

am I suppose to be scarry?

think

think

boo- I say

finally it heard me

and it runned away

so miserable

in my mind I am lost in what I have to do

and what my desires are

"I will run towards this human!" I thought

and did it

it wasn't what I wanted to

it ran

ran

and I stopped

maybe, this house is whole mine now.

Too beautiful; Too real

Too spice; Too sweet

Too hard to get

Too messy to miss

My heat goes

on the real

on the fake

on missed beauty

it drowns and fades

Please, make me your angel

holding me and

never forgetting

who I am

this way, you never lose your faith