You can’t possibly know

that I’ve figured you out.

I won’t fall for cunning ruses

won’t wash feet of filth

won’t take dreadful abuse

your angry words

your demeaning lies

your cheating ways.

In fact, you’ll be

a distant memory

that won’t be repeated.

You’ll see my back

Walking out your door

in lilting bounce steps.

I know this now

but you do not!

You know not what I know now,

Why I won't bow.

You don't know what it took to grow,

Why I won't let the hate flow.

You couldn't comprehend,

Can't even pretend or transcend.

You wouldn't try,

Not with insanity so nigh.

It's sad, really,

And pretty silly.

Anywho,

In relation to you,

I won't sink to your level,

I won't mirror the devil.

Because I know what you know not,

And what you know is naught,

Due to you being overwrought.

You always told me

I was a tulip

When I thought of myself

As a dandelion

You promised

To tend me

To water me

To help me grow and flourish

But one day

You fed me weed killer

And told me

It was nectar

And I believed you

I believed you when

My leaves shriveled up and

My color was drained

I believed you

Because you were a daffodil

And weeds are nothing

Next to flowers

But one day

I told myself

That I was

An orchid

And that was what

I became

And your weed killer

No longer

Had its hold on me

I grew taller

And stronger

Than even you

And I crowded you out of the garden

And now I take

My own sun

Leaving you to scavenge

For the remaining

You know not what I now know

Your time is coming, boy, you will learn

Your stubborn ears don't hear a thing

Every scar a badge of honor earned

Do you know what made you run away?

Have you given it a moment of thought?

No - you've regressed

into a drunken mess

Numb your brain, numb the pain,

Whiskey shots

What I know is who you are deep inside

Your cowardice is your biggest flaw

Too scared to accept the life we planned

And too scared to cut ties - you withdraw

You know not what I now know

I know that most relationships won't last

They're stamped with an expiration date

I think our "use by"date may have passed

Do you know your actions are cutting me?

Do you care that Im over here bleeding?

Do you think I'll wait for you forever?

Do you like me best, crying & pleading?

You know not what I now know

It's unnatural the way you turn so cold

To turn off emotions like you turn off a lamp

How are your emotions so controlled?

You know not what I now know

I learned the hard way, I earned my scars

Yet I was dumb enough to fall for you

So dumb to think the dream could be ours

I know a truth, you'll find out as well

I think soon your eyes will be open

There's not enough liquor in the world

To fix a lonely heart that has been broken

I know what you are going to know

But you're going to learn the hard way

You are not entitled to a goddamn thing

And every dog does NOT have his day

You know not what I now know

Happiness is not guaranteed

It's a limited offer, may not come again

Grab on tight, don't let it recede

I don't think you and I stand a chance

Not while you're a walking shit show

We are squandering the love we should embrace

Soon enough, you'll know what I know

The girl is red-cheeked, 

her lashes wet.

And everyone can tell,

Her emotions got the best of her head.

She thinks it'll go away,

Like pimples or the oily sheen.

In a few more years,

She'll stop being their crybaby queen.

Oh, sweetheart,

you know not what I know,

this is one trait of yours,

that'll never go.

You'll be better at hiding,

Memorize tile in the bathroom,

but you have to use water,

to make a flower bloom.

Caring too much isn't your fault,

it's what you do with that feeling,

and you, my dear,

will leave the world reeling.

I used to think like you. I used to look for meaning. I used to want things to matter. I used to think that there had to be some greater purpose to my life, to my presence.

But there isn't. Nothing we silly little humans do means anything. None of it matters. Ultimately, nobody cares.

We're all beautifully worthless, you know. Everything that we worry and care too much about, every meticulously planned action and line, all were completely, blissfully unimportant in the end.

In the end, we all die. We are forgotten, if not soon, than eventually.

That idea used to terrify me, it used to make me wonder why I bother doing anything, why I bother placing value in anything.

But eventually I realized the truth: it's liberating. It's liberating not to matter, not to mean anything. Nothing has any inherent meaning, so it's your job to assign meaning. or not to. You can - and  should, I think - do what makes you happy, because that's the only thing you truly control. You should work for yourself, for your interests, because when humans have gone extinct, nobody will remember you anyway.

If you know what I now know, you'd be selfish.

You pretend to smile

At others who know what you did. 

You play a role that elicits sympathy 

From those who fail to see the real you.

You wear a mask of happiness,

You still prey on those who care.

After all the trials, tribulations,

Lies and sacrifices...

You still know not what I now know.

I know now how to love myself.

I know now how to wear a smile

Showing that I am truly happy.

I no longer pretend to be someone 

I am not for the sake of others. 

I know now that I need not cling 

To others to be happy. 

I now know that only I

Can love myself for who I truly am. 

And it pains me to say 

That you know not what I now know. 

I look

At your tear-stained face

Your mouth, spouting those horrible 

Words

Comments

Insults

Meant to hurt me

Break my bones

And yet

You know not what I now know

You haven't yet realized 

I know

I know everything

All the others in our bed

You, keeping them company

You, who I thought was my everything

Now, in my pain

You are still my everything

I've come to find, though

That I was never yours.

You lied to get my understanding,

You cheated for my approval,

You thought the thug life

Was what I wanted

When all I asked for was

The truth of this occasion.

I didn't mean for this to happen,

But now as you're sitting in prison,

I begin to question each other's appreciation

And I'm wondering if I need your devotion.

Don't despise me for I did,

When I praised you during orientation.

Perhaps if you knew me a little better

You wouldn't have slit your neck

To get my attention.

Never really felt bad about it

As we drank deep from a lie

'Cause I felt your soul, 

The second I saw you through half-shut eyes

Face from heaven, 

I'll be thinking about what could have been

Now I don't wanna see the end begin, but pretty girls don't know the things that I now know.

Walk my way, I'll share the things that she won't

Dancin' past the point of no return

Let go, we can free ourselves of all we've learned

I love this secret language that we're speaking

Say it to me, let's embrace the point of no return.