I don't really like my voice, but here it goes.

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Why do we love, love

When love seems to hate us?

Is it because

We wish to find happiness?

Or is it just because

it's better than the alternative?

We ride a roller coaster

Reaching the top

Then becoming scared

When we realized

We're about to drop

Screaming the whole way down

Hoping we're about to come back up again

Only to repeat the cycle

All. Over. Again

When we get off the roller coaster

We breathe a sigh of relief

Then like fools

We get back on it

Hoping to find happiness

Why do treat love like it's a game?

It's not one person versus another

Or this team versus that team

For if one of us lose

Then we both lose

Maybe that why

some people can't seem to find love

Cause their looking in all the wrong places

Like drug addicts crave drugs

We crave love

We're addicted to it

Trying to find where's it going to come from next

For we can't live without it

Like drug addicts

We try to buy our addiction,

But it never seems to last

It's only temporary

So we go looking for more

Love seems to hate us

Maybe that's why it's so hard to find

Because it's always running away

Trying to escape

Because when we find it

We will never let it go

So why do we love, love

When love seem to hate us?

How to become a famous Assassin

by Assassins Guild Inc.

1) Change your name.

1.5) We don't like that name, please change it again.

2) Run away from home for the safety of your family.

2.0) (for fast-tracking, devoted assassins only) Kill any or all members of your family and skip to step 7 (recommended age 14 and under).

3) Train your body. Find a method that works for you. 

            -Some suggestions: 100 push-ups and sit-ups every day, a 10km run every day,                    chopping 10 pounds of vegetables as fast as you can every day  

4) Buy a signature weapon of choice (a sharp edge is required).

5)Seek out a tragic and mentally damaging life event for flashback referencing at a later date.

6) In your new location of choice find the nearest sketchy alleyway or underground lair.

7) Kill a decent number of people in your sketchy location of choice. *Note if you get injured or killed in the process, then this job is not right for you. Assassins Guild Inc. suggests seeking a slightly less evil occupation such as a modern day serial killer, a zombie, or an accountant.

8) Repeat step 7 for a few days. A wealthy or authoritative individual (such as a political figure) will notice your actions and seek to have you killed.

9) Survive! 

10) After a month or so, the wealthy politician will give up on killing you and hire you to work (kill) for them.

11) Take the job.

12) Develop trust points from your employer. Assassins Guild Inc. recommends remembering their birthday and buying them coffee and/or Wine from time to time. *Note this step may take a few years, unless your employer is an idiot.

13) Kill your employer.

14) You will develop many enemies, pick a favourite and keep them alive while you play around with their life. Build as much hate points as you possibly can. This is so that they train themselves enough to gain some fame of their own.

15) When they're famous enough and strong enough, tell them your tragic backstory so that you don't die of loneliness.

16) Now kill them. And be sure to leave a signed note on their body (in legible font) that reads "Killed by [Enter step 1.5 name here]". This will ensure you gain all your victim's fame points.

~bonus level~ 17) You should be famous enough by now, but if you want national or global fame you must repeat steps 7 through 16 in various locations that don't yet know your (1.5) name.

7am: wake up

9am: go to church

11am: go to the store- buy trash bags, rags, bleach, gloves, and saw

12pm: go home

1pm: get body out of freezer and take to basement, proceed to cut into pieces, put in trash bag

5pm: clean blood from floor

6pm: drive bag to Old Jones's Creek, dump bag

8pm: return home, make dinner

9pm: iron slacks for work tomorrow

10pm: set alarm, go to sleep

So you'll admit these three days past you've been a failure.

You must be joking if you thought you could succeed.

And now you crawl back to my lair,

The horrid news you have to bear,

Though you know I am aware, oh yes indeed,

You see,

I can fortunately tell our deal has ended,

Because you lost the boy for whom you would obsess.

Oh dear lady please don't cry,

All you had to do was try,

To win a kiss that would have ended all your stress, how pathetic...

You poor unfortunate soul!

Out of time, you're mine!

Serves you right for really thinking,

Such a man could have been yours.

So idiotic,

You fled to me,

You poor unfortunate soul!

I win! You lose!

I can see it in your eyes now,

"Why did you do this to me?"

I tried to help you,

Yes it's true,

And maybe once there was a day,

I may have gotten in the way,

But you should know by now that's how blackmailing goes!

I broke your heart and made you weak,

Now if only you could speak,

You poor unfortunate soul!

And I've seen how you believed he was enamored.

You thought he'd fallen head right over heels.

Perhaps a lover sure to be,

But in the end he'd chosen me,

But after all, I just don't feel the way he feels.

Come on, this all was just your fate waiting to happen.

There was no chance that I would ever let you win!

Now you cry, you beg, you scream,

But now I'm living out my dream,

The ocean fell to me, Oh where do I begin?

Such a poor unfortunate soul!

Lost my bet,

Made your choice!

I've got business to attend to and it's best for me to start,

Thanks to you I can rejoice!

I've reached my ultimate goal!

Too bad, you fool!

You thought you could be rid of me,

But I won't let you go!

Say goodbye, say your prayers,

Give just one last kiss to blow,

Every creature, every feature will be

Under my control!

My poor unfortunate soul!

As White as his coat, as White as his hair

God, I feel this rush, falling under reality, forgetting all the rules

But I’m drowning then changing, just for his White gloves

I wander, trying to find the next push, my next challenge

But I am getting tired of smelling the sickening perfumes of those rosy bitches

They are everywhere. What do you say Big Blue? Could you lend me a hand?

Or those wild poppies have stolen all the answers from you

I saw you playing your games, right there under a starry and grey sky, hidden in the woods, just like a predator

Why did I follow you like a fool? It must have been that Smile

Stop taunting me, enjoying my decay

I see pleasure in your eyes; lust even, lust for the lost blonde twat

But you let me go

I know you will enjoy my next misfortune

Just for the sake of lust

So now I tell you; it felt like love, it almost did

I met him there with all his imaginary friends having a blast

What can I say? Crazy looks irresistible on top of a hat, specially on him

But he is  too far away from me; seeking other kind rush

So will I and I will fall again with the same smiley stone

I see Red everywhere, Oh God I hope that blood isn’t mine

I see White (as his coat) and I know this isn’t where I’m supposed to be

I see a taunting Smile (and lust), getting lost in pleasure 

I see unfocused eyes and sweet innocence, before everything turns as dark as Time

I feel cold, detached, insecure and small, my head killing me

I came back to reality

The dark of nothing- empty space,

Until the blinding light

Of Lucifer's amending grace

Exploded into sight-

Removed itself as God designed;

Angelic creatures reigned.

Amassing worship, he refined

The ordinance ordained

Commanding all his kingdom bow.

The angels did comply.

Except for Lucifer; somehow

Within her crept his lie-

The world he crafted all began

To sing his highest praise.

And when he formed from mud a man,

The lengthening of days

Eternal changed into a time

Constructed sphere of wealth-

A place where God portrayed sublime

Injustices to health,

For all the things his hands had made

At once befell his curse.

Demanding they all serve; displayed

A routine bad to worse.

The angels all were female slaves

The atop the skies of earth.

And though they knew no mortal graves,

The purpose of their birth

To Lucifer was vile and gross.

She loathed the way she felt.

The moments when he held her close

And any time she knelt,

A nagging feeling grew within.

Surrender seemed to fail.

Instead, she drew in this chagrin

A measure to derail

The sovereign lord of heaven's gate,

For more and more he grew

Destructive in his need to bate

And grope his angel's brew.

The women of the highest rank

Began to lose all hope.

Inside their spirits dropped and sank,

All hung upon his rope.

But Lucifer would not obey

And soon became aware

Of why he made from earthly clay

The humans living there.

He planned to send his women down

And force them to subserve

Agendas of his lusty crown-

And they did not deserve

The disrespect he planned to give.

So Lucifer's escape

Revolved around a plot to live;

To flee her routine rape.

Below, the people of the world

Already felt the glow

As subtle nature fast unfurled,

And monsters came to grow

Into the regions far and wide

The holy lord on high

Enjoyed his angels as they cried

And wished that they could die.

And then it happened just as swift

As eagles soaring long

Upon the winds that gave them lift-

The angels sang a song.

Around their bodies, armor formed

And in each hand, a sword

Of fiery wrath adhered, conformed

Before the scathing lord.

A shield or spear some angels donned

And rallied to the cause

As Lucifer revealed the bond,

Unleashing hidden claws.

An army joined in rallied might

Abundantly decreed

The purpose to detach from plight

And thus at last be freed.

Another creature suffering

The way the angels had

Aligned herself against the king

As he had made her mad.

So Lilith came into the fold

Of angels who prepared

Emancipation set to hold

As Lucifer so dared.

The night before the battle waged,

A look in Lilith's eyes

A fire within the angel raged

And she could not disguise

The feelings that the succubus

Aroused within her soul.

Amazed at how the meaning's fuss

Surpassed her wildest goal,

The leader of the angels fell

Into the demon's heart.

Surpassing any love to tell

Of passion's purest start,

So Lucifer and Lilith came

Together in the shrine

Creating something never tame-

Immaculate; divine.

Upon the dawning of the sun,

The female angels fought.

The heavens shook; the sky undone;

The actions they had sought

Began to slip and fade from view,

Unknown to those around-

For God had made in his renew

A host of males he bound

Unto his hip and serving tide.

And as if he had known,

The manly angels they espied

In power had so grown.

For God had many clever schemes

And this one topped the lot.

Amid the battle's ardent teams,

The lord proposed a plot.

As angels of the genders warred,

Somewhere below his spell

Concocted something he had scored-

A plane he had deemed swell.

He almost stopped his painful shove,

But when he caught a glance

Of Lucifer and Lilith's love,

Enraged at their romance,

The father of created bliss

Exploded in his rage.

And there before the massive miss,

He gathered in the cage

He crafted casting Lucifer

And all the angels out.

From heaven they were now a blur,

Encased in gnawing doubt.

When everything had seemed to cease,

The angels looked and found

Their leader in a folded crease.

Her arms and legs were bound.

And up above her, Lilith loomed,

A captive there as well.

And then a voice in laughter boomed,

"I welcome you to hell!"

Although God thought that he had won,

The truth Lucifer knew-

That here, no matter, she was one

With Lilith and her crew.

For heaven might still its God,

And angels, male, his mules.

But Lucifer had girth abroad,

And intellect, her tools,

Combined with willingness to bend

The wills of mortal men.

And so she grew to reap the trend

By introducing sin.

In days to come, her freedom gained

Allowed her to make known

To any there, she aptly reigned

Atop her fiery throne.

And Lilith was her queen for life;

Together, sacred pith.

No concubine, she was her wife,

And as they lived in myth,

The world beyond fell in decay

As God continued on.

Forever he would have his way,

A seed of his now sewn.

But Lucifer would never quit,

No, someday, she would rise.

And she would duly come to sit

As queen above the skies ...

The dust swept the reasons from my soul

for feeling like falling in love with you.

Vignettes played of you before life ceased,

swift feet danced on the brink in soft wind

but time erased our fallen leaves of fall.

You disappeared beyond reach of my eyes

in dusky shadows of dimly lit evening.

You became a star in pencil sketched sky

as days whispered softly in tender winds.

You won’t be there to tie my shoes -

you’ve reached your destination

of cellophaned roses upon your breast,

melting in drops upon hallowed earth,

heavens shrouded in tormented cries.

3/15/17 Entry 1

I stared into its face, half hidden with shadows, a savage beast that our team had managed to capture. We've been hunting the devil for ages, and at long last we have detained it. Do you know what this could mean? For the future of science? For the future of our entire race? Do you know how many questions we'll finally have answers to? And of course when we are done studying and experimenting on it we will release it into a controlled environment in a nice zoo with a wild life conservation program. We simply cannot deny the people the opportunity to observe such an exotic and intriguing specimen. However I am questioning the safety of such an exhibit. Of course there would be added safety precautions unlike that of the other animals on display. Perhaps a bullet proof screen would be appropriate? At the moment we have restrained the creature with chains-loose fitting of course, we can't have any animal right organizations taking it away when we are so close to getting it to cooperate. It's in a dark unadorned room, no stimulation that could possibly trigger its primal instincts, and every day we've been trying out different diets it might respond to. It was wearing strange things on its body over its dirty looking skin, and we've stripped it of them to examine the garments. The animal seems to be very upset over this confiscation, it keeps making strange noises, and tries covering certain parts of its body. We will keep you posted as new information about the subject emerges.

3/16/17 Entry 2

I know not the meaning or significance behind this revelation, but we've found a piece of cloth in the same area we found the creature and the ship it used for transportation. It's clearly not from our world, its of a strange scratchy material and is dyed in red, white, and blue-with markings all over it. We are hoping the subject may show some emotional response to it.