Live “Now”!
The past has happened and cannot be changed. Too many people get stuck in the past, worrying about what they did or didn't do, what they should have done or not done. So many regrets. Don't be like them!
The future hasn't happened yet - you can make it whatever you want it to be. So many people live in the future, 'As soon as I get that degree/job/girlfriend/ etc, then I will be happy." No, you won't. Don't be like them!
The only reality is now. This is happening, this is the present. It is a present from God.
Enjoy the moment, it will never come back again.
My ideas come to me at the most inconvenient times:
In the middle of a shower while I’m soaping my face
In stop and go traffic that won’t forgive a nanosecond of neglect
During a team game just as the ball is being passed to me
While I’m on top of a ladder, alone, fending off injury
These genius ideas that I later forget
Come and tease me without regret
In the middle of things that I can’t neglect
I look for them later, but find that they left
Leaving behind only a fleeting feeling of what could have been
I’m not a kid
When I was younger, I’d get too excited over the small things like holidays
I was just a child being childlike, oblivious to everything
I had dreams I didn’t know I couldn’t achieve
I got candy and presents and food and I was happy with just that
Then I grew up, and realized my ignorance
I stopped wearing costumes, stopped eating so much, stopped waking my parents on Christmas Eve
Because showing that happiness was a sign of weakness and immaturity
The cool kids didn’t show their excitement, so neither should I
I still feel excited when the holidays come, although I don’t show it
I want to eat all the thanksgiving food, eat all the Halloween candy, open all the Christmas presents
But I don’t show it because I can’t
I’m not able to because showing emotions is showing weakness
I just want to be a kid again
The End of Fight or Flight
We have been running,
to and from what-
God only knows.
We can slow down now,
cracked open ribs
bearing what pieces we have left.
Safety feels foreign,
we snarl at any threat.
Protective of what is now ours,
we make promises and plans.
When the dust settles,
and our pulses slow down,
meet me under our stars,
in this new season
of our sleepy beach town.
Free Will
The belief.
Shower of relief.
Ties and bonds.
Decisions that are bold.
Accompaniment of faith.
Approval of fail.
Building a bridge.
For eternal folds.
Loving a person.
Choosing them.
Venerable by their side.
Additions of strength.
Sorrow, Tears and Mourns.
Happiness, joy and desire.
Sour, Bitter and tasteless.
Running back to sweeter.
Moments we live.
Memories we keep.
Roads we've taken.
Kisses stolen.
Arguments broken.
Lovers we meet.
Friends we keep.
Love we lose.
love we grower.
Talents we use.
Steps we take.
Built from the hearts
Done out of free will.
When we collided
Been taught
How to stay.
Been taught
How to care.
U wasn't my mate
You wasn't my better half
U weren't perfect.
U had majestic flaws.
I wasn't your first.
I didn't need to fall.
I couldn't be your next best lover
I couldn't rate to your better.
But we found heeling together.
We met our first date.
Made love one simple evening.
Talked once then twice.
You became my favourite decision.
I became you second half.
You danced to the tune of my smile.
We died in each other's arms.
When we collided.
Heaven
Of all the places in existence, I would like to explore Heaven. I want to see my loved ones again and know that they are happy. I want to be happy myself. I want to meet God and ask him all the questions of the universe and what my purpose was in life and would be in death. Most of all, I would like to know that I lived a good enough life, that I was a good enough person, so maybe what I really want to explore is my own soul.
