Before i die

I want to

Live

Not the kind of living

Where you get rich, find love,

And pack your days full of meetings

Cause your super important

And you have to get your coffee

To go

But truly live

The kind where

At my funeral they’ll all say

“She wasn't scared of living”

The kind where when everything goes wrong

It ends up being an adventure

That ravishes my soul and every fiber of

Who i am

The kind where i'll finally realize

That i am enough

To live and drink in every moment

Like the coffee

That i actually

Sat in the shop

And drank

fine!

1) blow up the death star. it's the least i deserve.

2) an apology from the Dell company for betraying my trust and selling me crap.

3) write a symphony .

4) meet somone that writes here. one of the cool ones. and you know who i am talking about.

5) write a 4-line hiku.

6) read the last two novels of the 'ice and fire' series. been a while, mr. Martin....

7) see a new star wars flic that makes up for the last one.

8) talk about poetry with sophia.

9)teach sophia to play piano/saxophone.

10) see how sophia turned up as an adult. help her if she needs.

11) eat a pinapple.

12) be able to love a cat.

13) finish the story i'm stuck with!!

14) live on a paradise island. (preferably not deserted. i had enough if that stuff during the quaranteen).

15) win at a sport of some kind.

16) successfuly sue the church of scientoligy.

17) be able to pull off a humphry bogart impersonation.

18) sing a song.

19) fix a clock

20) have a ruben sandwich.

1.) Get a job

2.) Write an album

3.) Buy my parents a house

4.) Get a dog

5.) Learn how to drive

6.) A tattoo of a millipede

7.) VR

8.) Finish a project

9.) Find a partner I can live with

10.) 200kg deadlift

at almost thirty

i stare down

the barrel of

a loaded gun

that tastes

like a song

i listened to

while drunk

in this life

i want to rewrite

lyrics that change

minds

mostly

mine

Before I die

I want to find my purpose

The purpose of life

The purpose of world

The purpose of us

Before I die

I want to reach something

I want to say I lived a life

Nobody else has

To have followed a different path

Before I die

I want to find my place

My path

My life

My loved ones

Before I die

I want to make a difference

To someone and everyone

To help

To see happiness in dark eyes

Before I die

I want to be

I want to see

I want to love

I want to live

Before I'm taken,

I must say,

How much I love my family,

Even my little brothers.

Before I am gone,

I must travel the world,

And see all the sights,

All the magical places.

Before I leave this world,

I need to tell you goodbye,

As I lay in my bed,

Give you each a kiss,

And tell you I will see you soon.

prove that my life had meaning. I want to live with no regrets, and die without any as well.

I've heard countless times before that 'everyone has a purpose in life'. Well...what is it?

If I truly will never get the chance to live again, I don't want to waste my time searching for something that might not even matter once I'm gone.

But that doesn't mean I won't try. I'll do everything I can to help others, cause when it comes down to it...thats all we can really do.

Making a difference isn't easy. It takes time and dedication. I'm not denying my youth by saying I'm setting myself up to help the world, though. I'm still gonna be a teenager...until im not anymore.

If I die, I might not remember my life, what fun I had, how hurt I was, or anything really. You wont know what's in store until you're there already. But if I can at least make sure the world is better off than when I came into it...then maybe it won't be so sad if I leave.