I want to

o v e r c o m e

I want to be fearless

I don't want to hide

I want to live

I want to be able

to speak when I

believe

in what I say

and I want to connect

I want to learn how

to not forget those who love me

and to hold onto the things

I love

I want to

o v e r c o m e

I want to be fearless enough

courageous enough

to love

and accept love

I want to create

express

flounder

flourish

fail

and o v e r c o m e

but i fear i dont have the strength : and sometimes wants feel like fantasies

If I tried,

would that be enough?

If I grew wings and flew beyond your imagination,

would that be enough?

If I kept my head down in my school books,

would that be enough?

Tell me mom,

will being a societal success make you happy? Would that be enough to make you happy? Would having a stable okay life be enough to make me worth being your daughter?

or...

Would I be enough being me?

Would you love me if I chased my dreams?

Would me being happy be enough to make you happy?

If I traveled the world and never got married,

would that be enough?

If I moved to an isolated haven and read books every day,

would that be enough?

If I wrote for a living,

would that be enough?

Tell me mom,

please tell me

that living out my dreams

is enough for you to love me.

I want to go to college and become a therapist, specifically in relationship/marriage therapy. I've known what to do for years and this is how I want to contribute to other people's lives and fufill my life.

I want to publish at least three books. I would love to see a book I wrote in a public library.

I want to eventually get married and have kids.

I want to be active in the fight against global warming an help the people and animals that are affected by global warming.

I want to help people and help myself.

I want to be able to step off the sidewalk to get where I'm meant to be.

To have the courage to let go of the hands holding me back, and run across the street.

To look up and smile, not be afraid to shine.

To trust with my whole self that the stars mean what they say.

To know that when I fall, I'll have someone there to catch me.

To say yes for the first time again in forever.

To give myself again to someone else without fearing what happened before.

To realize that the things I'm meant to do might not be alone.

To see that I shouldn't be scared to walk onto that stage with him.

To tell the world every story I share with him.

To walk the paths of hell with him.

To stand side by side until the end.

To not spend a night alone again.

To be there, a friend, or whatever more, for him.

1) Run away to work in a bakery in France that sells the best crossiants around but also has healthy competition wiith the cute boy’s bakery down the street. Live in a second story apartment a few blocks away so I can ride a vintage bike over to work in the morning, compelte my shift by noon and work on a rennisance romance novel in the afternoon. Ideally with a coffee or latte in hand. Go for eveing strolls along the Seine, visit culture rich museums and go though parks on my bike after buying groceries from a local market.

2) Watch a meteor shower in the early hours aftee midnight on the top of a vintage car with:

- a layered plaid blanket

- black boots

- telescope

- some chocolate

- no city lights

- the sound of crickets

in crisp air on the side of a country road with nothing around for miles except for me and my s.o.

3) Fall in love

I want Society, unbroken,

familiar words unspoken,

yes to be yes and no to be no.

Wanting, not having to go.

Am I asking for too much

when I expect The Good and such?

I want to be free in my homeland

I want to live in a democratic society

my life ends one day

it's a dream ...

I want my people to be happy

I want all wicked people to be destroyed

my life ends one day

it's a dream ...

I want all the wars to end

I want the planet to be its own

but my life ends one day

it's a dream ...

I want to be free from sins

I want to please God

but until my dreams come true

i can't do it ...